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A sign of life...

2006-01-30T09:43:00.000+08:00

A sign of life...
(John 10:10)

*peek-a-boo*
Yellow!!~ Huhu it's been a while since i last posted a blog. Hmm... if i get the dates correctly, the timing was umm... last year :p
Well goodbye 2005, and welcome 2006!! Haha a bit late for that huh, but yeah its better late than never at all... so yeah thanks for that.
Wow what a year it has been for me... got into so many troubles last year, even got deported lol!!~ But thanks to the Christmas miracle that Jesus gave me, im back in the game. :p

Well thank God that He still want me here, in this beautiful city of Perth.
Otherwise God knows where i'll be huhuhu. Well God is good all the time. He definately knows better than i, He's never wrong. Never doubt Him.

Been through lots of things as well, mainly a factor named human emotions. Well... not a fun road to be in... but hey im still alive and kickin' haha!!~ So thank You Lord. It's been a good xp i guess. Learnt a bit more about 1 or 2 things walkin' on earth. Well if you're reading this, it's been really2 great, and you're fun 2b with, really... and as you once put it, i'll keep the memories in the depths of my heart. All the very best to you i'd say. I'll try my best not 2b a stranger...
ps: Sorry 2... im also just a human, who's not perfect, who made lots of mistakes... lots of 'em. Huhu

Well time is moving forwards and not backwards, so as the seconds moving forward in this year of 2006, Lord i pray that i can move forward more in Your direction too, more in Your heartbeat, more Alive in You, more Passion for Your name, and more Compassion, the same compassion that you've showed towards the multitudes will be in me. That the world may see and know that You are the Light of the world. Lord with my state of wisdom and understanding, I dont know how much trouble that im gonna get this year Lord, so i pray Lord God, that You in Your abundant grace will pour a little portion of Your unmeasurable Godly widsom and understanding upon my life. Lord You know me better than i know myself, You know every weaknesses, and strength that i have, So Lord i pray that in this year of 2006, the year of Victory, my weaknesses will be reduced, and You will teach me to stand even stronger in You. For all the faithfullness, mercy, grace, and Love You've shown me untill this very moment, and for the same things that You gonna show me in my future time, I give You all the honor, thanks, praise, and glory. And thank You Lord for keeping me Alive and in the race. In Your wonderful name i pray.
Amen

Yesterday is not today

2005-08-11T13:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is not today

There were laughter
There were loudness
There were holler
There were sadness

Remember the time we had together
Now put in a box called memory
All those years of my life
It seems just like yesterday

But there is no glory in yesterday
For yesterday will only be yesterday
And yesterday is not today
Today is today
And tomorrow is another day

Everybody steping fowards
Nobody is steping backwards
Even time is going foward
Now let my feet step foward

Unto the will of my Father
Who asked me to go foward

Indeed God is a good God

2005-07-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

Indeed God is a good God

Just realized over somethings...
Just how much im blessed
Blessed by His goodness, His strength, His faithfulness, His grace, His love, His mercy....
His companionship. Truly God is so good.
So good to me, so wonderful, and so lovingly gentle at the same time too.
Truly i am Yours Lord.

One of the longest day i had

2005-07-04T15:58:00.000+08:00

One of the longest day i had...

(Caution its so long, but its so funny in a way, that u will either laugh or cry with us
its one of those story that u just dont get everyday... and i just have to write it down...)

Yesterday i had experienced one of the longest day i had during my stay in Perth. An interesting, certainly wonderful, and yet somehow irritating and frustating. Haha and you'll find out all about it during this posting.

And the journey starts here...

woke up @ approx 7am makin my way to the bathroom, and preparing my self for sunday service with great expectations in my heart
Reached cana around 8.20am (yes late...) for Praise and worship reherseal
By 13.00 the service has ended, leaving me so encouraged, and lifted up bcoz of the message that uncle preached that day had such impact... hehe only the word of God can do that... And we had such a wonderful time in the presence of God during our worship that morning... Praise God for that breakthrough in worship... Its such a sweet and wonderful tp have that peace and God's arms wrapped around you... Thank You Lord for moving in when we almost move out... (haha i think the worship team will know what i meant) Not by power, nor by might, but by the Spirit of God.
Then around 14.00 we had lunch at the chatters... but we had to rush our lunch, because no body was there to lock cana house. Poor benny and some of the people had to wait for a while.
At 15.00 we started again the music practice for the anniversary. Credit to the musicians who tiredlessly searchin for chords, practicing them through and through tho they were quite tired themselves. :)
Finnished abt 18.30 or 19.00 cant remember... then we headed to gelato to chill out with chillingly delicious ice cream (i know someone who was craving for gelato :p) of course being the good christian that we are, we had a decent conversation there... not!!! haha we were interogating one another in one of those "BGR session with ur friends" :D
By 21.30 Ado and I had to reach Uncles house because uncle and auntie are going to Sydney 4 the hillsong conference (by faith im gonna go there next year!!) and we are priviledged to take care of his house and of course the 2 dogs, prince and princess... :D
At 23.10 we left the house... and headed to the domestic airport
Reached there around 23.30 and the queue for check-in was so long, and we were last on the line haha, but yes they made it just on time to check-in (the flight was midnight)

AND THIS IS WHERE IT GET INTERESTING, AND YET SOMEHOW ITS JUST..... hahaha

So we went back to uncle's house...
It was around 00.30 Ado parked uncle's car inside the garage, but the door to the house (from the garage was locked) so we closed the garage door and decided to go in through the front door as usual... but alas... the door cant b unlocked because the spare key is INSIDE the keyhole to the front door on the opposite side (from inside the house, and we are outside the house... still with me? haha good)
we checked every side of uncles house with torch in our hands as the only 'safety tools' we had in our hands...
Oh did i tell u that, i didnt bring my mobile, my wallet, and let alone any other key... i was using slippers too... because my mind told me its just a half and hour drive to the airport and i will be back.
And ado left his mobile IN uncle's car INSIDE the garage... hahahah interesting right?
We searched for every loopholes that we hope exist... but alas... after abt an hour of putting our efforts opening up doors or windows or anything!! there was none... no loopholes... (the dogs are inside... but we are outside... They are warm and cozy inside and we're stuck and freezin our buttocks outside HAHAHA what is goin on arnd here?)
It was i think arnd 2.00am? (didnt had the time with me... or ado in this case) we decided to look for a petrol station (Ado's car was on the danger E ;for empty line) fill up petrol, and get some phone calls.. but not a single soul was upthere in kalamunda at that kind of time... just our luck... but THANK GOD!!! Ado has cana house key in his car... so yupe we went to cana.
Reached there around 2.20am, so we were hungry (havent had dinner wakaka), cold, sleepy... we went to the office and slept there with blankets that were donated to Miracle cafe hahahah... It was an unforgetable exp....
In the morning we call the locksmith to go up... but after one and a half hour of waiting for the locksmith to come and check on the doors... he too had no luck whatsoever in unlocking the doors... haha so he said he gotta BREAK the door knob (we chose the laundry room bcoz its the cheapest to replace haha) so BANG BANG BANG, and the door knob was done for... but yet alas... there was a key chain that was chained to that door.... :S
So altho door was unlocked, it cant be opened... :S so we kicked arnd, and did "body slam" hoping that the chain will break... YESS the door was opened at the expense of my blue-marked on my arms and shoulders... but that aint matter coz we are IN!!!
BUt...... Yess theres another door after that laundry door that was locked... (its like those locked in ur bathrooms or toilets) and this one the locksmith had no trouble to unlocked an opened it...
phew.... that was long wasnt it? haha unforgetable.... truly...
Oh well now im inside... just thank God that still can go in, alive, haha even see my mobile phone again.. wahahah what de..
ok la thats all...

God Bless.

ps:I hope ur laughin with us, and not at us ;D

Still Your love never fails....

2005-07-02T08:04:00.000+08:00

Still Your love never fails....

Somehow, when u spoke last nite, i should be crushed, or something or anything...
But im not...
Its definately not becoz i want it to happen
But i guess i have given God the pen already...
Somehow it is tempting to just write my own story with my own scenes...
to make things look good with my timing, with my own feelin, with the storyline that i might have in my head, or even in my heart.... hehe
But that would be wrong... that would mean, it would b me who write... not You.
Im not to worry whats lay in the future, becoz its His promise that He'll make everything beautiful inHis own time, with His plan, and His will be done.
If He does make a way for this than it will b with His own scenarios...
It would then fulfilled the dreams that i might have at the moment.
But if its not... if He close the door... then i have no regret too... :)
Becoz by then, i have built a beautiful friendship. :)
So either way im gainin somethin precious...
(To put it bluntly, with Jesus you always win.... i guess this is true :p)

Jesus i belive in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
The reason that i sing, with all i am
(This is the beautiful song that i have atm :p)

God i remember i've given You the pen already, so im just waiting for You...
(For now i dont think i am waiting for the person to come anymore, i've found it haha :p but its only You know o Lord and most of the times im wrong anyway Lord hahaha :p)
But for now i pray that You'll teach my heart to be patient, to be humble, to be gentle and kind, to be loving, to be like Yours.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy;
love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things...
(1 Cor 13: 4-7)
This is God's love...
Have i been able to love others like that tho'? Not yet... but i do wish too
Coz love never fails...

Yo...!!~

2005-06-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

Yo''

How y'all been doin? Hmm... just finnished exams last week. Until now, the time has been goin so fast... How come? Huheuhe... I think time's gonna be so slow within this month.... just becoz... just becoz...
But hey, God is always good... all the time... all the time... He is always FAITHFUL...
Wow... just been so blessed and so overwhelmed by the feeling of the faithfulness of God.
Thank You Lord.

Sigh... i guess i can use this holiday to spent more time with God.
Yupe thats what im gonna do!!! w00t!!~ :)

Ok la... not really in the mood to blog... but just thought i put somethin up... Take care ppl.
God Bless Y'all

separations?

2005-06-15T15:33:00.000+08:00

Separations?

Ever heard that term before when a side in a relationship said "I think we need to take some time off each other..." or some other versions of separation.
I heard it in the movies, of course huehue... In fact, i even had the experience(s?) lol... to be separated...
And i gotta tell ya man, too many separations in life aint gonna do u good for your heart lol, thats why try to minimize the number relationship u have in life. As in the end you'll end up with only one... or none... well for those who has more than one in the end... hmmm all the best with ur explanation up there is all i can say 2 u. :p
But was just wondering whether a separation will bring strength and extra passion for each other? lol or just in fact the total opposite.

Hmmm? Any thoughts?

Exam Fever

2005-06-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

Exam Fever

Yellow blog mania, how y'all doing? Hehe a big shout to all uni students whos facing yet another examination challenge. The challenge to persevere thy spirit from all other temptation such as computer, tv, etc; to endure the thickness of text book, and who can forget abt the stress!!~wakaka no worry guys, with Jesus we are stress free!! ;D

Hmm... lemme recalled what have i been doing that i couldnt blog. Oh yeah, we had that BGR (Boys Girls Relationship) session on saturday!! Oooh such an inpiring day... im sure the boys and the gals in church has an increase of awarness to their opposite sex around them.
Just wanna say to those who are still waiting (including me huehe) dont worry, just trust God, but keep in mind to do some "works" too, it aint gonna be dropped off to your door step. God delivers only if it serves His purpose. Hehe...
But i do understand for those who are older, and in that age stage (more mature i meant!! :p), and uncertainty may arise.
Dont question His timing, He is never too late nor too fast, but always on time, and everything is beautiful in His time.
Dont be desperados for partners, but be desperados for God 1st, then He Will show you!! He will show you!! There will be doors opening up for you...
Hint: As you're gonna be desperados for God, you will wanting to do His purpose, His will, know His heart desire... people... you will bring in people back to His arm. And who knows from 1 of these people may be your future partner. eg: Anniversary event!! Hehe... :) Work together with ur other bro n sis in ur cell groups, so while the gals are bringin in more gals, the guys will bring in more guys, n voila!!~Hahaha of course this hint is only for those who finds it a bit hard to notice the gals/guys around you even at this moment!! :)

Hehe got carried away there... Oh well better get back to study. All the best ppl. ;D
God Bless.

Dudududu....

2005-06-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

Dudududu...

Want to say, but cannot say
Want to care, but cannot care
What am i suppose to do?
Lord, i need You so bad...
My strength comes from You
My joy comes from You
My all comes from You
But why so hard to trust You?
I am Yours Lord... Do what You will
I trust You.. I trust You

Short sighted...

2005-05-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

Short sighted...

Yupe, i'm short sighted, which means i cant see far. Umm... if u notice thats why i wear glasses!! (sarcasm tone...) Which means if i take off my glasses, i cant see THAT far... :p

Well... in terms of my personality, i am too short sighted... I can only see whats the situation like atm, and cannot see far...
And this is where faith comes in... it changes my blindness into trust. I trust You God.
Tho' i cannot see very far from where i am at the moment, i know You can.
If letting go means to see what great things You lead me unto, so be it.
If letting go means to go another direction... so be it...
But i wait for You.

God Bless.

what to write?

2005-05-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

What to write?

Hmm... i feel like saying a thousand word... but the words just wont come out... why?
i realized that in a sensitive situation, one should choose his/her words carefully...
Because one knows what blessings/curses a tounge can bring forth...
Either bring unity or division amongst peers.
Once you've said it, you cant pull it back...
Miscommunication is another thing to watch out for... Most of the time people are assuming... assuming this, assuming that, you say all the words, while you dont know nothing.
If you dont have facts... dont say it, never assume... What troublesssss it can bring forth...

Sigh i dont even know what am i doing writting all these... i guess it's been a while since i wanted to write regarding people and their assumptions... and im feelin that the timing is right...

"Lord teach me to be more sensitive to the people around me, especially the ones that close to me, and let Your love bind us all in unity" (Taurus 2005 4:48pm).

GBY'all.

Love dont cost a thing...

2005-05-23T13:13:00.000+08:00

Love dont cost a thing...?

True or false? Hmm... my opinion... it depends which love u talkin bout. If God's love of course its FREE!! But i dunno bout loving somebody dont cost u a thing. Love although may not cost anything (in terms of money), Well if u dont believe me u can look for love in eBay and u wont get it. hehe) but love does cost ur time, ur energy, it cost ur heart, and if u truly love someone, that someone will cost u everything (technically speaking)... And its not a bad thing actually, it might look kinda ummm... expensive? But hey think what u can get back in return... u get to love her/him.
Love is sacrifice, if u dont like to sacrifice, dont even bother to be in a relationship. :P
Your thoughts?

ps:
The best thing u can get in life is God's love.
The best thing u can love someone is with His love.
The best that i wanna do in my life time is to serve Him, with you, whoever that the Lord has for me :p
together...
God Bless!

An update...

2005-05-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

An update...

Yay... an update from iZz0!! haha
Hmmm... the last 2 weeks or so has been quite hectic for me, as the number of works that i had to put for assignments is just massive!! T_T
Thank God for His strength and joy, God is always good.
Altho' there's another thing that makes me feel happy. Huehue...

MmmMmm suddenly i feel the need for chocolate!!~ MMmmMMmmMMm... Chocolate...
Anyway uni is going to its last 2 weeks or so before exams, so i think most of u guys are trying to meet ur deadines for asignments. So work hard, good luck, all the best!!~ We will be free next month or so...!! Yay!! :p

there's a begining and there's an end
there's a first and there's a last
there's a hi, and there's a goodbye
I said hi, so when do i say good bye?

lots of people are going back to their countries this coming june. Some for holidays, and some are for good. Sigh... i dont like goodbyes... really i dont. Im hoping there's a hi and no goodbye. :p hehe of course there is that saying its not goodbye, its just a see you later... yeah some times its true... but still...
Oh well, for those of u that i wont be seeing for a while (later) keep shining for Him eh. Then i'll b able to hear abt y'all. :)

Okok la better put back my happy mood.... im learning to aprreciate what i have at current time, and that appreciating can feels so good... ;)

Have a blessed week.
GBY'all.

What kind of love is this

2005-05-13T10:26:00.000+08:00

What kind of love is this?

The best use of life is love.
The best expression of love is time.
The best time to love is now.

Before i went to bed abt 2 days ago, somehow i thought of something... I was thinkin, Lord Jesus, have you ever fall in love before? What would You do then? Then as fast as i raised the question, i got revealed of God's love.

He died for our transgressions, a death not for Him, but for us...

Giving your all, laying your life for the one you love is the biggest form of love.
For God so love the world, that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whoever believe in Him will be saved.

Then i thought again to myself... wow, the love He had for us must be so deep... Cant compare it to human's love.

What kind of love is this
What kind of love is this That climbs the hill
That bears the cross That takes the nails
What kind of love is this That takes my place
That gives His life And clears my name
Oh, I want to know What kind of love this is

What kind of love is this That gives His Son
That bears the sin Of everyone
What kind of love is this That cries alone
That tastes of death To bring me home
Oh, I want to know What kind of love this is

It's wonderful It's glorious
It's full of grace And full of Mercy
Powerful It's Marvelous
That's what this love is That's what God's love is

What kind of love is this That fills my soul
That lifts me up And makes me whole
What kind of love is this That gives me hope
That dries my tears And brings me joy
Oh, do you want to know What kind of love this is

Jesus, Jesus
He's full of grace And full of mercy
Jesus, My Jesus
This is what love is That's what God's love is

Break-ups...

2005-05-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

Break-ups...

note: There might be controversy and debatable issues in this topic, but what the hey :p

X: Hey, where is "so and so"?
Y: Oh... We broke up...

Break-up hurts... doesnt matter for what cause and reason, it hurts... Even superman can cry if Lois Lane is breaking up with him. It is said that for some people, mostly male in particular, their wounded hearts heal faster, they just learn to let go, forget abt it, and move on with your life... might not be true for some people as diff ppl have diff level of relationship. But if it's not dealt properly, it can lead to bitterness... and u just dont wanna go there...

Well, if u r a nomal bunch of people, u will definately dont wanna b in a break-up situation.
iF u do, well...umm... it aint my fault if ur just plain crazee -_-; lol

It is said that, the most unwanted situation a human being ever wanted to be in, is to be alone... not single... but to be alone. And apparantely, when you're in a relationship, you actually try to know that person, understand that person, care for that person, love that person, you become so close with that person, eventually you will feel that s/he's somehow a part of your life. And when u brokeup... for whatever reason, u will feel so alone, because u think that a part of u is missing.

Initially, God as our creator, never inteded us as His creation, to go through that kind of pain, to feel that kind of hurt. Because Him, in His perfect plan, has created a helper comparable to us... notice i typed "A helper..." not "a bunch of helpers", not "oh... chris, why dont u try out from these 10 nice beautiful born-again ladies, with Godly characters, tanned skin, etc to find your right one..." God is specific... when He created a helper that is comparable to us, He specifically created just that one for us. God doesnt make mistake... "oh that one didnt work out with u yah chris, okok y dont u try this one?" Thats ridiculous!!
Then how come some of us have break ups? Hahaha... Impatient is a human nature that EVERYBODY has... No matter how patient you are... you can never outbeat God... in everything. God is God, we are just human. So we as human being, tends to get a li'l impatient, and foolish, that we make mistakes, and wrong decisions in life. Well... in this point of time in your life is where you need to pray, and ask the Lord God for wisdom. Let Godly wisdom kicked in and gives u guidance that u needed.

If you're a positive thinker, you can think that break-ups will built your character up, that it can put u back into GEARS instead of TEARS. Well part of it is true... through each trial you faced in life you will hopefully become wiser, and stronger. But you dont need to feel this kind of trial, this breaking up trial.
If you're a negative thinker.... well... dont be a negative thinker. It's bad for you. Hehe

Actually there are more points that i wanted to put... like commitment and break-ups, etc... but just cant think clear atm, not due to break ups yach!! hahaha but due to tiredness. So i'll prob continue this topic sometimes in the future, if i remember, and im in the mood. Wakakak...

ps: For those of u who never felt breakups, or rejections, CONGRAGULATIONS!!! ^^

GBY'all.

not mine...

2005-05-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

Not mine

This is not my writing, but its good... so yeah...

I know how uncaring,
how thoughtless,
how disappointing,
I can sometimes be
But I want you to know
that I really want to be a person
A friend who you can trust,
who you can count on,
who understands you, and
who accepts you just the way you are
Its not easy at all for me
and Im not perfect
Ive failed, again, again, and again
but I want you to know
that Ill never stop trying
to be the best friend you ever had.

Eph 3:20

2005-05-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

Eph 3:20

God laughs at odds. No matter how big the dream, how huge the request, how lofty the hope, or even how statistically impossible the task, He can do it - and infinitely immeasurably more. May God be seen for how great He really is!
Ephesians 3:20 (paraphrase)

...

2005-05-05T10:04:00.000+08:00

...

For a person who seems so close
You seem so far away
For a person who talks a lot
You leave me speechless

Unlike some others
That i thought i can work it out till the future
I cant think like that with you
Not because i dont want to be

As we are livin 1 day at a time
So i wanna think abt u 1 day at a time
That i can cherish the time i can spent with you
That i can cherish you

Surely i'll plan abt my life
But God direct my steps
Surely i wanna b with u
But let God's will b done

You... intrigued me...

ps: Bleeehh... what the hey am i doin at 10 am in the morning... -_-;

The Author and The Finisher

2005-05-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

The Author... and The Finisher

3 postings in a day!~ Hahaha...
Anyway this last posting for the day is prob a bit more personal... if u know what i mean. ;p

My friend borrowed me a book called "When God writes your love story". I havent finnished reading it, prob just about halfway. But i gotta say its a pretty good book. I received and learnt quite a bit from it.

Im just gonna take a bit from 1 of the chapter... (im changing the name unto my name ok :D)

Chris, dont you believe that i know who you will marry, and im capable of leading you to that right woman someday? Can u also believe that I am the God of all creation? I know you better that u konw urself, n I am perfectly able to bring this woman into ur life in My own time, in My own way... and i dont need ur help.

Ouch... I just realized that through out this time, tho' i said lots of time that Lord its Your choice, Your will be done. But actually deep inside me im still not ready to give the steering wheel to God in this area of my life. Because i realized that i didnt know Him that well... i didnt realize how BIG he is, I didnt realize what are the things He can do for me.
I know that God is good and all, but what if God leads me to a person i dont like? How will i know if shes the right one? What happened if her face is not that good lookin? etc etc... lots of what ifs... Hehe but know i know... How good and loving Our Heavenly Father is. I prayed that God will remove those doubts, and worries. Because i know God has the very best intention for me. I meant if God cant do it? What in heavens name that makes me think i can do it? Hehe... So i learnt how to let go... and let God.

Im also learning how to trust... to put it simply and bluntly, when it come to relationship, im quite a worrier and jealous kinda guy. This is not what God had in mind when He talks abt love in the bible. So if i am not changed... i think it'll b very unfair to the woman of my life. So i prayed that God will change me b4 im in a relationship. And its not an easy thing!! Its sooo hard... but i am in that process to learn n be changed.

Hehe and i got this favorite line that said by the author's wife to her husband...
"Even if you get a pot belly, and go bald, im going to love you Eric! You cant lose my love, because its not a love i need to feel--it is a love that i have chosen!" Wow... i wanna be able to love like that... its like Agape's love, God's love, Unselfish love.

Lord i give You the pen to write about my love story... altho it might be a tough process, Lord im willing to change, and let go of some of the areas that i need to let go. and let You to 'steer' my ship. Because You know best O'God. And in your mind you think of the very best for me. Teach me how to love a woman with Your kind of Love, an unselfish love. Hear my prayer O'Lord. In Jesus name.
Amen.

You are the author and the finisher of my faith, just as You are the author and finisher of my love life. Hehe...

Oh well now to continue to finish the book. :p
God Bless Y'all.

Blessed by God

2005-05-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

Blessed by God

Ever had that feelin of feelin so much joy, and blessings, that u are actually living a life that full of God's promises. Abundant life, abundant not just in terms of how rich, or how much u have, but u actually living a full life? haha i dunno how to put it to words. But thats prob the best description i can give.... living a FULL life... not just an empty life. I had that feeling this weekend. Blessed in abundance by God thru' the church. :D

My bday, it was on last sat 30 April. Im 22 this year, hmm... well 22 is good (I aint that old!!). ;D
I had a VERY GOOD TIME on saturday. Thrown water, tied up, n get technically crucified by numerous number of water bombs. Wahaha but its all good. I had fun... Thanks guys for the compliments.... i'll b sure to pay u guys all back in ur bdayzz, with interests!! *evil grin* ;D

Anyway all the guys gathered together a love offering for my present, which totally touched my heart, and im so blessed by it. Thank you guys, thank you so so so much... GBU all.
And the JAG gave me a shirt which im thankful for, because otherwise i'll be naked after the crucifixion (and judging by the enthusiasms and SUCH willingness to tied me up etc... i gotta say that i think im loved!!! HAHAH). But i gotta say that touched my heart so much this year is gotta be the bday card that made by the JAG... its so creative, and nice... very nice... i asked them how long do they prepared for it... 2 weeks... wow... *double-thumbs-up* Thank You guys. Dunno what else to say cuz u guys left me quite speechless... (and as u know its not an often thing to happened) :p
I give thanks n praises to God for all of you guys, my friends, my family. :)

God Bless Y'all.

Within you

2005-05-01T19:20:00.000+08:00

Within you is the strength to meet life's challenges

You are stronger than you think
remember to stand tall.
Every challenge in your life
helps you to grow.
Every problem you encounter
strengthens your mind and your soul.
Every trouble you overcome
increases your understanding of life...

When all your troubles weigh heavily
on your shoulders,
remember that beneath the burden
you can stand tall,
because you are never given
more than you can handle
and you are stronger
then you think.

~Lisa Wroble.

Wow... cool eh? i got that of my bday card from Uncle Jimmy and Auntie Evelin. :) Thanks. GBU.

Oooouuuch...

2005-04-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

Oooouuuch...

Sometimes u just dont realize whether an issue in your life has been already settled or not unless... You encounter it... again... in a bad and hard way?

Im talkin bout my bad mouth and tongue here. I brought up in life with a background thats quite umm... influenced by my surroundings and my environment. I used to swears a lot lol.
Its not a good thing to do but it's a fact, and i didnt know why it was so bad back then.
But amongst those time, i made a policy that i shouldnt swear / throw faulty language to a girl, any girl, under any circumstances.

When i became born-again christian (almost 2.5 yrs ago) i learnt that swearing is not a good thing at all. Thus i tried to stop it... but its so hard to change back then... but thru the Holy Spirit conviction, i chose to do it out of love... not because simply some ppl said i cant swears. So by God's grace and power, i finally able to stop swearing... (2 years ago?)

Well...ok i thought i've dealt with that issue.
Anyway bout noon yesterday, i met with some friend of mine, and his gf came along too. Soon the gf was startin to swear here and there, every now and then. OMG... (i didnt know if could fill this way) i just felt so irritated to hear a lady that swears... a lot. At this point i somehow just felt disgusted, that last time i was like this too.

Anyhow, later on that nite i talked with 1 of my friend abt it. I told her how i thank God that i am saved, and become born again christian, and have change, becoz of this gal that i met is so bad, blablablabla.... and so on, until... (i didnt know what struck me...) i was in the middle of a conversation / discussion, cant even remember what were we talkin abt, and suddenly, unconciously, i blurted out 'that' word!! To a gal some more... and not just some gal. T_T

So i quickly apologized and all... but its too late... its said and done... the last thing that i imagined i would never do just happened!! OMG!!~
Well ppl said there's always a first time in everything. I've had my first fight, I've had my first crush and crushed, I've had my first plane ride, I've had my first hug, I've had my first confessions, I've had my first moment where i couldnt say a thing to a gal bcoz i was so nervous, I've had my first encounter with God, I've had my first touched by the Spirit, and apparantely YESTERDAY was the day that i've had my first moment of swearing (well blurted out the 's' word) to a girl... that i care for. How awesome is that!!~ My life is complete!!~ LOL. D'oh!!!
O'man gotta tell u i've felt like an idiot, i've felt like a jerk, i've felt so bad.

After i finnished apologizin, and talkin to her, i still felt bad and very uneasy, the conviction from the Holy Spirit kicked in! Have i really settled this issue in my life? Or what? Such role model i am!! Far out man...
Soon afterwards i quickly repented, ask for His forgiveness, and ask God's power to change me. I took The Sword... and got reminded by these 2 awesome scriptures:

Matthew 7: 1-5
James 2: 2-12

Oh man... its so scary how a slip of the tongue can get me feel really^2 bad... not that i shudnt fill bad abt it... It's just that the tounge is a dangerous tool... U can either use it to bless or to curse... i preferably dont wanna choose the latter. But i didnt use my tounge to bless my friend's gf yesterday... I could've said something, but i just judge her... i didnt even see / remove the issues of life that i stil even have within me, but i already try to find her fault or issues. The irony is that the 's' word that i blurted out to her is the word that i heard and felt disgusted by that afternoon. lol. Do i fill like the pharisees and seducees (spelling?) or what.... GrRrR...

Anyway i thank God for letting this happened, and bringin it up to my awarness, otherwise i dunno what greater damage i can cause in the future ahead. x_x

I can even make my own mastercard advertisement now. Flowers: $8, Dinner: $50, me2u bear: $100, Blurted out the 's' word to a girl u care for: Priceless!! There's somethin money cant buy, for everything else there's master card!! (My version: There's somethin money cant buy, for everythin else, there's God's Grace!!)

To her: Were u shocked? lol i think i was even shocker to my self back then. lol. Man i couldnt sleep nice that nite. Oh man... i guess i better do somethin special to make amends with her... Ice creams? ;D lol.

Hope u guys get sumthin out of this too.

God Bless.

ps: That's a first and that's the last.

A busy week break?

2005-04-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

A busy week break?

Yesss thank God for 1 week break in curtin uni. We so so so so need it... Tho u cant really actually call it a week break.... since there are *so many* asg and other things to do. But still its better than nothin'. ;D

Wow really had a blessed weekend through God's servant Dr. Kevin Corner and Sis. Rene Corner. Wow... really blessed with all the teachings and preaching.
Well... they made the effort to come... now its up to us to make the extra effort to change. :)
And I had these verse for a couple of days now... its from Col 1: 9-10. Its about life that pleases God. Seems like God been speakin and askin me... What have you done today that pleases me?
What can you do more to please Me?
God is good. All the time. Always and Forever.

So all the very best with your work loads, may that be in high school, uni, or your work force.
The joy of the Lord is with you.
God Bless Y'all.

Ummm...

2005-04-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

Ummm...

Sigh sigh sigh... what the hey? lol
Ummm... yah im having my group meeting at the moment, but since its a bit long i decided to do some refreshin' of my own.
Til' yesterday nite i think i was in a state of dilemma. Huehuehu, and you know how fun it is to be in that state rite? Its so fun till u just dont wanna be in that state anymore. lol (sarcasm)
When you're in a dilemma i think ur contemplating between 2 things which are quite diff. U thinkin whether u should do this or do that, coz it doesnt lead into the same road, it has different consequences. I know what i want now... i just needed to wait for the confirmation from the Above. ;p Haha there's 1 ad in indo that has the exact motto u know; i know what i want "ku tau yang ku mau". But sometimes u dont always get what u want for the better reason. ;)Wahahah... Umm yeah anyway... God is always good. Amen!!!
But i gotta keep on remindin my-self that i need to put God's kingdom and His righteousness 1st. :)
Thank You.
I am dilemma no more... ;D lol

Woohoo uni week-break here i come!!! WAakakakaKAakaka.... Pardon me im just crazy.... :D
GBY'all

Unknown Title

2005-04-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

Unknown Title

I question my self regarding my timing
Was it the wrong time?
Was it the right time?
But I never question God's timing

What if I can turn back time?
Would I want to change things?
Although there are some regrets in the past
But I don't wanna change a thing

I can pretend not to see with my eyes
I can pretend not to hear with my ears
But I can't pretend what I fill with my heart
As I can't pretend that I do like you

What's there to like about you?
Your softness amongst your sassiness
What's not to like about you?
Because you smells (grin)

Now as the unclear becomes clear
I know that things might not be the same
But as friendship is a continuous journey
Let's continue this wonderful journey

Thank you...
For making my life so much more interesting
For being you
For being my friend

About time...

2005-04-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

About time...

Its about time to let go, and just let God.
Lord i submit before You. I surrender all things unto You.
For You know better than i. You know what is best.
Thank You.

Heavy...

2005-04-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

Heavy...

Yupe, at this moment im feelin really heavy, so heavy, so many blows and slaps in the face. The circumstances that im in currently, is probably 1 of the hardest 'testing' that im goin thru, 1 of the highest mountain that i have to climb during this life. Endurance... yupe thats the word that im lookin' for. Forgive me for my trespasses, and my foolish thoughts, and acts.

You never give up on me o Lord... so i wont give up on You.
You said in Your words, "come to me those whose loads are heavy, for Mine is light and I shall give you rest".

Here i am...

One of the highest mountain that i have to climb... but the time will come where i shall overcome that mountain, when that time come, i shall be standing on the mountain top!!

I am an overcomer in Christ Jesus!!~ Your strength never fails o Lord.
Circumstances change!! But You never change!!
I praise You, O God! For You are good!! For Your perfect plan!! For building me up!! For You have strengthen me, and gave me great joy!!
I thank You, O God! For your faithfulness upon me, for Your unfailing Love...
I bless You Lord, for i am blessed.
Thank You Lord.

quick note

2005-04-09T11:05:00.000+08:00

Quick Note

Sometimes its really hard to make a decision. Especially when things just arent going your way. Nobody said that walkin in obedience with God gonna be a piece of cake. It can twist you, re-shape you, mold you, but hey He is the potter and we are the clay after all. But at the end of the day, your faith in Him will be stronger, your obedience in Him will brings you to maturity, your relationship with Him will be deepen. Instead of taking it as a great loss, its actually a great gain for your character. Surrendermeans give up, surrendering you're life to Him means you giving up you're life for Him. And you just gotta ask where is God? is He numero Uno? When you give up on somethings, it does takes faith and obedience. Sometimes all you need is faith, sometimes that li'l act of faith and obedience is what's needed to save your love ones unto His glorious kingdom.

Just a li'l encouragement to some friends that i think needing it at the moment. Keep pushin in yah!~ Its not easy to stand up and make a difference for God. But remember when you stand up for God, He'll stand up for you. MY-G-O-D-IS-B-I-G!!~ It is hard but nothing is impossible. He just loves to turn the impossible to be super possible, to change the heart and attitude of people who's a bit stuck.
I believe when you obey & follow God, He'll open doors of wonders for you and you're family.
Happy followin! lol.

Have a blessed weekend y'all.
God Bless.

ps: God neva gives u the spirit of fear, but of power, love and sound mind! Never fear but believe!!

Yellow!

2005-04-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

Yellow!~

Yellouuuuww friends, n other bloggermania how u doin in this beautiful day?
Im currently at uni... was abt 2 do some reading n study (and yes u guess rite!!~ Distraction kicks in).
No particular topic in my head sih atm, coz im a bit distracted with some other thing.
Anyway i've been lookin thru friendster, and lookin for my old friends from high school when i was still in indo. After a long research i actually fouind couple of friends of mine. wow they have changed a lot!!~ Especially my first crush in high school... wow... used to be really pretty... or was i that bad in giving rating for girls back then? Haha no la, she still pretty but just a bit chubbier. :)
How funny, when i looked back to those days... i've always thought 2 myself the more prettier or sexier a girl is, the nicer they are. Haha... and how wrong was i? I was a fool... still now prob... but God's wisdom helps a lot. ;) Mind you, its not that im saying pretty ladies are not nice or kind... some are... but some are just not... thats when human pride kicks in i guess.

Honestly speakin, my eyes are still often distracted by some pretty ladies, my heart are still pumpin hard when a sexy lady sit next to me, the adrenaline rush is still there when i talk to a lady that im attracted to. lol. But believe me when i say i have no other intentions other than saying if God can create such a beautiful women, then God You're even more beautiful. Huehue...

But as u all know... Beautiful outside doesnt necessarily mean Beautiful inside... Unattractive outside doesnt necessarily mean unattractive inside. I wont know whether she is an attractive person if i dont know the real she within. And inside is where the real you stands... its the important bit... inside you is the real you.

... And yes i dont know you yet... i thought i know a lot abt you... but i dont.... for a person that thought i know a lot abt you, i actually know so li'l abt you, so li'l from the much desire of wanting to know you better. I want to know you a li'l more, i want to know you more, i want to know you better.... i wanna know the story of your life... your past, your present, and your future... Will you allow me to know a li'l more abt you? ...

Got that from somewhere i forgot. But i thought it was nice and quite spot on?... hehe :)
Anyway better get back to do some study.
All the best with all your studies/works/relationships/etc.
...Put first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and the rest shall be added unto you...
Ok then have a great week ahead!
GBY'all.

Denial

2005-04-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Denial

What am I doing?
Who are you anyway?
Why can't I deny you
Am I in denial?

The uncontrollable missin feelin
The needs to hear your voice
The wishes to see your face
I deny it all

The smile on your face
The funnylook when you're mad
That look when you're sad
I deny it all

The personal chemistry
The atmosphere of attraction
The desire just to be near you
I deny it all

Not because I don't want it
But because the phase im going through
It's simply complicated
Lord, what am I suppose to do next?

Guide me Lord
Strengthen me Lord
Equip me Lord
Help me Lord

I am me

2005-03-29T15:16:00.001+08:00

I am me

Loud uniquely designed by the Creator
Radically created for His purpose

Bullying people is my specialty
"Jayus" is my personality
Cant stay still is my best ability
God is my Durability

I care lots for my friends
But tends to be ignorant at times
Which makes 'em irritated towards me
But I keep on walkin' and grinnin'

Love is long suffering
How true is that?
I look forward to it tho'

But jealousy is in my veins
So I put my knees to the ground
Pray that God will change me

My weaknesses are obvious
My strength is God

This is me
I am me

Hehe...

2005-03-28T11:24:00.000+08:00

Hehe...

I am currently trying to do a poem, but i just cant finnish it off... ;( so while waiting... Click here.
(Turn your sound on)
Dont you think, s/he has a HUGE potential?
Hehe GBU.

Good Friday...

2005-03-26T09:59:00.000+08:00

Good Friday...

Yesterday was good friday. Yesterday was a good day.
Thank God for His strength and joy. Thank God for the souls that had been won.
Jesus Christ is RISEN!!~ Yay!!~ :D

Happy Easter!
God Bless Y'all!!~

Grrrr...

2005-03-24T08:11:00.000+08:00

Grrrr....

GrRRrrrrrRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRrrrrr @ you!!!!

There's something abt you

2005-03-21T11:58:00.000+08:00

There's somethin' abt you

From the 1st moment i gazed my eyes upon u, i knew you are different and unique, may that be in the company of many or even in lesser multitude . I cannot deny the law of gravity, as i cannot deny the attraction i felt towards you... No matter from which angle or point of view i see you, you are beautiful!! You're gorgeous!! You have a stunning body, and you're exquisite yet sexy features makes me wanting you even more.
God, draw me away from this temptation of mine.
I dont know whether we can be together.
Only God knows, and i do pray to God that i can be together with you...
But you are so... sadly yo say, out of my league (for now).
I wait upon the time we can be together...
I count the time that i'll spent waiting for you...
I love you... always...

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Beach anyone?

Love you... MINI!!!~ ArrrrGGhhhhhHh Hans had his car serviced 2day and BMW lend him the MINI COOPER!!~ And its Blue!!~ I want i want iwant!!~ huhuhu gotta work hard! Huuhu Nothin' is impossible!!!! AMENN!!! Hahahahaha :P
And no, im not totally crazy abt the mini, but gotta admit, its a very funky lookin' car. ;)
Huhuhu...
God Bless Y'all.

What do u do when u fall in love?

2005-03-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

What do u do when u fall in love?

Fill in the blanks??
(Click picture to enlarge)

Yupe, thats the topic for now, and nope; to answer your next question, currently im not fallin' for anybody yet . Huehue...
Last week, if i recall correctly my sis n i had a pretty interesting discussion. We were talkin' abt our past relationships, which eventually lead to this question... What do u do when u fall in love? Well actually let me rephrase that question for you, what do u do when u actually starting to like someone? As in interested/attracted/1st stage/1st degree/10%/crush/simple crush/or whatever-u-wanna-call-it? lol
Hmm.. then we sort of conclude the discussion by appointing that there are 2 kind of methods ppl used (or at least my sis and i used anyway).
The different types are:
1.) You completely act foolish (unintentionally that is) when ur around her/him. You try to smile a lot, or u try to grin a lot which caused u to either scared the living day out of her/him or you have face cramp!! LOL Then s/he will eventually find out that u actually like 'em bcoz of ur acts.
2.) You play it cool! You play it real cool!! You know as in cool as ice... too cool 2 b true... 2 cool that s/he eventually found out that u actually like 'em. Hahahaha....

Then i thought 2myself... Which one am i? Haha after lots of thinkin and lookin back, then i said to my sis, that i think im a li'l bit of both actually. If for myself, it actually depends on the girl that i'm attracted to... i can be a real dork at times, grinning like an idiot every 5 minutes coz of the memory i had with her, or purely just smilin all the way when she's around me (then i had that face cramp at nite lol), i looked like a crazy guy who just been released from mental institution coz of a laughin problem. Or i can be mr.FreeZzo; lol i play it really cool, which made me look like a freezer, that i actually froze myself to death, coz then she'll eventually notice im actin' weird coz im different then the way i usually act around her in the past. Hahha Crap!! XD
Well i dont have any regrets whatsoever... at that time you girls was worth all the face crampz i had at nite. ;)
(sorry if i scarred y'all HAhaha)

Then mago said... there's the type who's in between. The umm... pull-push method?!? Haha i dunno the english for it, if in indonesia we call it 'tarik-ulur'. In this method, we play it smart... we play it along side the situation that we are in at the moment. If the situation calls for it, then we try to pull 'em with whatever methods we have, then u can also push 'em away a bit (note-2-self: a bit) not too much... coz then it'll b a real problem if u push 2 much... they end up fallin in the other direction. Heheh... ;) This way the person u like cant really guess whether or not u have feelings for her/him. Unless s/he really know u.

But anyway those methods are not really important... i wrote this for the sake of pure entertainment. ;)
Besides, if YOU happened to be the one that the opposite sex like/have crush on... u gotta b able to smartly read every moves. Now where did i put that manual...hmm... (Oh my God didnt realize that i said that out loud). ANYWAYSSS.... The manual is the bible!!! Yupe thats rite!! Hehehe Pheeeewwww....
The book of proverbs!! GODLY WISDOM!!~ Yeah Proverbs 31 for the guys!! For the girls... Do ur own research!! :D Prayer makes perfect!!~
Thats all from me. Have a great week ahead guys.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

A Reminder

2005-03-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

A Reminder

Hey Bloggers, a big shout 2 y'all. Been a while eh? :P
Anyways, I've been busy by some things, tho' i keep on reminding my self, that busyness is not an effective ministry. :) But yeah, my friend, buddy, mentor, Roy went back already to Indonesia. So all the very best 4 him in whatever things that he gonna do. God will guide u, keep u, n love u always bro. Come back soon!!!~ ;)
Then there were those practices for drama, and music for good friday. (note-2-self: it is NEXT WEEK!!!) Oh my Lord... huehue its so fast!! But even tho' practices are tiring, but it's fun, and i do enjoy it... tho' i think i def. need couple more practices. Hehe... and yupe bring new friends!!

Back to topic... these couple of weeks i've been feelin kinda weird, i dunno somehow i just felt a bit heavy. The things goin on with my visa, good friday, youth, uni, AGENT, then $$$ lol. Phew... quite lotsa things on my mind. But the Lord is always good, ALWAYS providin' my by grace enuff strength to last each day.
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Z: Oh man, there are so many things that i needed to do... it seems like so many things, so li'l times...
Y: Yeah been there, done that.
Z: Then there's also mr/ms. xXxX to think abt...
Y: Huhuh... Yeah who can forget abt that...
Z: So what am i gonna do?
Y: Umm... How do you go from this end of the room to the other end of the room?
Z: What the? What do u mean?
Y: Im askin you how do u go from this point A to point B there?
Z: Umm... By walkin'?
Z: Hehe Exactly... you take step by step, just like u going from point A to point B, u do ur things step by step, go thru' 1 step at a time, just like 1 day at a time. God's your provider, He'll provide u with the strength you need for the day. Just ask Him, He'll listen...
You make the planning first, then u go step by step. He'll direct you. ;)
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Yupe, got that reminder somehow... i forgot that i needed to walk step by step, cant just jump, i'd fall. Thank You Lord. Ok Thats all from me.

...Step by Step, Day by Day...

God Bless Y'all.

Dear Diary...???

2005-03-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...???

Is it good to know the truth?
Tho' sometimes it hurts?
Is it good to know the truth?
Tho' sometimes it bites?
Is it good to know the truth?
Tho' sometimes it makes u smile?
Is it good to know the truth?
Tho' sometimes it makes u leap with joy?
Is it good to know the truth?
It is good... Coz it's not a lie
It is good... Coz it's the truth
Truth never lies

What the hey? Just watched fightin' temptations again today... and it sort of inspire me. Tho' there are some others... ;)
God Bless

Hitch: The cure for the common man

2005-03-04T10:02:00.000+08:00

Hitch: The cure for the common man

Yupe, watched it yesterday nite with some friends. Must say its the funniest movie yet in this early year of 2005. It is purely entertainment. Gotta say, personally i love romance-comedy kinda movie, and hitch just made it happened for me yesterday. :)

Will smith plays as Alex "Hitch" Hitchens in this movie, a love doctor who's job is to give an opportunity to a common man to have that romance goin' between the opposite sex, which hopefully ended up in fallin' in love with his date. And apparantly he also have some umm... situation of his own? And given some hilarious scenarios, and romance flicks, and some great pick up lines. Gonna give it a 8/10? Huehue... Go see it y'all. In the end of the movie he'll tell u the basic principle, which is... Huhuh u go see it la, not gonna spoil it for ya. ;)

This is why fallin' in love is so damn difficult... - Alex "Hitch" Hitchens.
God Bless.

1st Post of 2005...

2005-03-02T14:42:00.000+08:00

1st Post of 2005...

Well... what can i say? This place been dumped by the owner for quite a while, and the time has come to put this bloggin business back online. *smile*
Although it's the 2nd day of the 3rd month in this year of 2005, this is my 1st post! Yiippeee?!? Since i havent been bloggin for quite some time, the feelin of bloggin is a becomin a bit akward... Just like when u havent see ur X for a while, then suddenly s/he is walkin by from the opposite direction. Haha what de?? Thats not it!! :p

Wow, i've been gone through quite a lot actually. Quite a lot for such a short period of time. Quite a lot to put it into this topic. Quite a lot that i decided not to put any of those in this topic. It's past tense, and since past tense aint determinin my future... Jesus does, so i say Let the past b past, & Let Jesus shape ur future.

Ok so now my main focus for this year will be:
1. Jesus
2. The church
3. The youth
4. Uni or Girlfriend? Huhuhuehue... uni lah, uni... Girlfriend will come when God think its time. And uni is starting already... ;)
5. i was thinkin of something, but i cant quite get it out... so i'll just put etc. oops thats rite Wisdom!! Hehe... swap with no.4

Ok la, im havin a class soon. so its quite enuff for my 1st post of 2005.
Happy huntin y'all. ;D
God Bless.

Hullo!~

2004-12-29T17:30:00.000+08:00

Hullo!~

Hehe its been a while eh? Anyway happy holiday all, hows everyone's Christmas? Well for us who had the fortune of staying in Perth had a great Christmas, Fantastic Miracle Cafe, with other interesting stuff. Hehuehu Rock on Perth!! Then on boxing day it was Movie Marathon with the Young adults.
Anyway no time to update atm, but just gonna wish u a happy new year!
I'll c u next year.
God Bless,
Peace Out.

1 sided love.... the 'what if' Factor...

2004-12-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

1 sided love.... the 'what if' Factor...

Hehe yupe thats the title. Tho it might sound funny, but just read abt it, and give it a thought. (caution: it's a bit long, so bear some times)

As y'all know, we are currently walkin in the month of December... Well 4 some of us it came to the time of the year where we make valuation of ourselves. Did we achieve our goals this year? have we achieve our new year's resolutions, and how good or bad we are as a person this year, How much has God helped us this year, How much did we grown towards Him, and so on.

And for some of us it might just happen that we valuate ourselves in terms of relationship. Huheuh just to share the honesty, i am 1 of those ppl, who's currently thinking "well, maybe next year eh God...". To be blunt i actually said and think the exact same thing last year, exactly in December last year, but im still SALAD (Single, Availble, Lonely And Desperado) well maybe not so much of the desperado this year. Hahaha... Well tho' i am probably a bit dissapointed, and sad. I know that God's way is higher than our ways. Maybe He knew that im not ready yet. lol thats fine with me, coz God is good all the time.

Anyway back to the topic, from the life that i live, the experiences i had, and some natural observations, i observe this thing called 1 sided love... Im sure u guys had one of this b4 at least once in ur life. If ur hadnt then im just wrong, and we leave it at that. lol. :D

So u like her smile, her good looks, her well shaped body or his well built body, and his character, or something along that line lah. But it came to that time where u do ur reality check, then you realise that he or she might not be that attracted towards u as much as u do towards 'em. Or s/he already attracted to someone else, tho' they might not be in a relationship just yet.
Well that's my version of 1 sided love anyway, u got urs, but this is my blog... so yeah... lol :D jkjk.

Then it comes the time of waiting... lol how we all love this time eh? haha.... Prayers are thrown, questions are thrown to the Father. Then Questions started to poping-out in ur heart and maybe if u got one, in ur head too. :p (Heheh sorry i guess im in my sarcastic mood :p) Then the big question came to ur mind... the 'what if' question. What if i change my hair style? What if i di this? What if i do that? What if s/he likes me latter on?

Huehueu... dont worry, i 've asked and thought abt it too. I guess its natural for us human being to think ahead and think what we like to happen. But sometimes it just dont happen...n u gotta know that whatever happens, God is in control, if it doesnt happen then God has a reason for it to be, if it happens, then God has a reason for it to be. God is in control, not you, no matter how much u try, if God doesnt want it to happen, then it wont happen and vice versa!~ Forget the 'what if' factor & Have faith in God and be urself.
Remember the 4 c's, know what character s/he is, know whether personal chemistry do exists between the 2? Are u guys compatible with each other, and whether both party wants and ready for a commitment. Im sure when we pray He'll listen. He'll send out ppl 2wards you. He'll give u the options, you make the choice, so dont blame God if u choose wrongly lol. For those ppl who said but i made my choice, Keep in mind that whether the other party has made theirs.
As for me, not only i want a 2 sided relationship, i want a 3 sided relationship, From my side, her side, and God's.

Ok huehu sorry it's a bit long, but i jsut had to write it. lol. Anyway i guess it's time for me to pray, and throw some more questions to the Lord. Heheh...ok
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Its Hot!~

2004-12-13T17:35:00.000+08:00

Its Hot!~

Dang it!!~ Its extremely super hot!! Last week was even hotter 38 deg. or something, today is only 32 but its still Hot!!! Feel like jumping to a pool... wish i had a private indoor swimming pool. Haha it'll be good... Yupe keep on dreaming Chris. I think the heat is getting to my head. So its another 2 weeks b4 christmas, and i havent done my shopping just yet. Maybe next week eh? Oh well i dont take a long time to shop anyways, unlike some of the gals... (Note: I said some of... not all of... So please spare me some mercy eh gals? lol)

Still thinkin' what to buy for MC. Hmm its probably my 3rd Christmas in Perth, Haha Summer Christmas. Oh well its still good, huehue...

So what have i been doing till now eh? Let's recap... Beach, Gardening, Carpenting, Movies, Stay-overnites, Care Groups, Bday Party, shopping, and hangin outs. Hmm I guess the Christmas party and new years party is in the coming soon lists. Wah i need to do something extreme and radical or somethin' man... Its a bit boring ay. Sigh...

Ok... Its time to turn on the airconds, and its time for relaxation... oh yeah!!~ Hihi Ja ne...
God Bless.
Peace Out.

Summer is...

2004-12-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

Summer is...

HERE!!~ YEAH BABY!!~ Its beach time!!~ huehue sorry, im just a bit carried away by the situation :p
Its been a while since i hit the beach... Finally the time has arrived. ;) Huhuh but dang it!!~ i lent my mate my body board!!~ Nooooooooooooo!
Oh man, i really kinda took Australia 4 granted... man i love oz!!~ they got some great beaches here... the waves... the sand...the girls... :D Huhuhu
Anyway, we re going to the beach in abt 2 hours time... so yeah...

Hmm what else do i wanna write eh? Huheuhe...
Christmas is coming soon eh? Well santa, i've been a really good boy this year (i think... lol). And i knew from the beggining of the year what i want!! *BiG GRiN* Hehehe...
But i guess i can wait till next year... So santa if u read this letter... plz foward it to Jesus. huehue
Next year... Yupe next year... no more picky^2, just choosey^2... huehue ok la thats it 4 now.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Its time 4 an update...

2004-12-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Its time 4 an update...

Huhu About time eh? Holiday just went by 4 abt a week now... more and more of my friends are goin' back to indo or their respective home country. Its been a great week for me, Uncle and auntie have been so nice to me, they given me some summer part time job to do so i can gain some extra bucks, not to bored my self to death, and drawing my minds off some things... :p I've become a carpenter and a gardener. ;D

So i think my hangout buddies are now Ado and Kenneth... lol ;) Hmm... need at least to connect to the opposite sex so that i wont go crazy... Hahaha jkjk... :p Patience, Endurance, n Believe. lol.

Anyway i think im on my poetic mode or something... haha but i cant seems to get it out... Sigh...
Maybe later eh... Oh well, i think it'll be called emotions.

Ok la, i think thats it for now, ill continue on later when i have time, coz now its PARTY TIME!! :D

God Bless Y'all!~
Peace out.

Ps: A big shout to those ppl in indo, esp. the trio kwek^2, Honggi, Charles n selloi, etc... :p
Take care eh... Dont eat too much! Make sure bring some foods back for me. :D

F R I E N D S H I P

2004-11-27T19:08:00.000+08:00

F R I E N D S H I P

are inside

d Heart

So no matter how

Rarely i'd b seeing u,

u wld always b

remebered!

()""()

( 'o')")

(.)/FOREVER =)

Got that sms from a friend. Thx! ;)

God Bless U!~

i'll c u later...

2004-11-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

i'll c u later...

Hey, its been a while since im bloggin' around. Im at Andreas' house at the moment, he's trying to sort out his room, and pack up his bag. Today, well actually tonight, there are couple of my great friends going back to Indonesia, and he's one of 'em.

Got some pretty tight, and mix feelings at the moment, feeling of liberty from exams, feeling of uncertainties, feeling of excitement to go to music practice soon, feeling of ... etc etc.

Anyways, dunno what to write at the moment. huehue... hmmm i guess i'll end it here for now, and i'll c u later...

U guys have a great weekend kay'? God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

It is 1:19 AM

2004-11-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

It is 1:19 AM

Yes... well if my eyes aint playing trick on me, the time when i write this topic is 1:21 Am.
Anyhow its been quite a day... And to put icing on the cake, today after we went to eat sizzler 4 dinner, we went to catch a movie. We were gonna see The Manchurian Candidate... But due to some small yet BIG forces around us, we went and see the Grudge: Ju-On. OMG!!~ Its been quite a while since i went to see a horror movie in a cinema with some friends... And i must say its an interesting experience. Huehue i was watchin it with my left-eye close with my leather jacket, to reduce the impact! Wakakak... but unfortunately when the most interesting parts was on, my jacket wasnt in the right place, so i had goosebumps all the way. Huheuhe but anyhow it has an interesting story.

Ok... lets put something diff here.
Thx to roy i had the chance to listen to the pastor Kong Hee's tapes regarding choosing the right soulmate. Wow it was really good, informative, and funny. Coz its too much info... im not gonna tell abt it now. But there are some key ingredients that u gotta keep in mind while keeping ur eyes on the look. huehue.
Character+Chemistry+Compatibility+Commitment.
And God doesnt choose ur mate for u, sure He might put some of the best list in ur mind, but in the end it is u who are making the final choice, and decision. So keep ur eyes open, u just never know... huehue and dont be too picky!!~ ;)
Ok la, im staying @ Mago's with kenneth. So this is iZz0 saying Good night, stay tight (with God)!~
God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

Women of my life...

2004-11-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

Women of my life...

A couple days back, when i walked past 1 of the shop in city's busport. I accidentaly overheard the conversation between the producer and the consumer. (study mood: on!! Yeah right... lol)

The Seller asked the young man who i think at that time bought some wedges; He asked him "Have you got a woman boy?".

Since i was in a hurry i didnt hear the reply and continued to walked on... But funny how the question stuck in my head till now. Huehue...

So while i was walking, i was reviewing the women of my life... the ones that made an impact in my life. And OMG while i was reviewing and think abt it, u will be suprised of the names that actually showed up and stuck on my mind!! Huehue coz i was shocked myself. But yeah i guess lots of women made an impact on me, whether its big or small impact, whether its rather forgetable or unforgetable. Well this topic is made as a dedication to those women. I guess what uncle spoke last time is true... Behind every great man, stands great woman... (or women in this case lol)
Anyway i think top of the list is gotta be my mum, well tho' time is short, but i love you nonetheless. As for the rest of my list, or should i say suprised lists, is none of your business! ;D lol jkjk.

Oops better get back to study now. Have a good one guys.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Twins...

2004-11-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

Twins...

Hey, its a bright saturday morning, gonna be a great day, and a great weekend too!~
Anyway, while i was on my way to uni a while ago, at the bus stop, i met a father who was handling his twins. There was also a chinese man (abt mid 20-ish), who was very interested regarding the twins. So this asian fellow started to ask some friendly questions. Coz they were just next to me, i could hear the conversation without any problem. Hehe... And thru the conversation made, li'l did i know that in China, Twins are not allowed... Its banned due to the huge population increase. And i was like Dang!!!!!! What happened if twins were born in china? Do they killed em? Dang man... thats nasty.

Anyway the twins' name were Lucas and Thomas, the father was a very nice man, have that charisma of a kind and loving father. Anyhow as the chinese man asking lots of questions, the father too answered the questions regarding the twins with some pride (in a good way :P).
He explained like, altho' they look very much alike, they are very different in terms of their personality and character, each are unique; just like us ;). If i remember correctly, Lucas was the one that is outgoing, bold, and love to talk while Thomas is very shy, and stick to the father much. And as the conversation kept on going, the father actually told the asian guy, that they were actually a triplets... tripple twins!~ Wow... But unfortunately they lost one...
I believe the chinese man asked a question similar like 'it must be hard, to tell 'em apart, since they are so very much alike...'. The father replied, yes to some ppl its quite hard for some ppl to tell the diff, but as for me, bcoz of the bondness, and certain link and connection, i can tell the diff without any difficulty, like when one is crying, i can tell who is crying without seeing.

Huehue, twins are so interesting!~ I wonder whether they have a unique sense for each other?
Huehue i dunno. Anyway the father said, one thing abt twins... u gotta buy everything Double! Haha i guess thats the way it is.
Ok la, u guys have a great weekend.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Continued on...

2004-11-11T13:37:00.000+08:00

Continued on...

Hey u guys, just gonna continue on what i wrote yesterday... Yah granted that i still do feel the dissapoinment in my heart, but i do not fear where im going, coz God is with me. But what makes me more sad is that, during these 3 years im here, i made lots of fantastic n great friends, and i met lots of interesting ppl. Thus probably the saddest part is that i gotta leave 'em behind.

Yesterday, when the prayer nite was on, auntie sang a worship song... which ended... with a sentence I've found where i belong... (forgot the title huehue :p) And at that time i really felt where i belong... in God's presence.
Anyway thx so much for pleading with me u guys, i know that Father heard our prayer since last months or so... N it is not in vain... Im just gonna trust Him even more... Yeah!!~
I remember during the rise leadership session, there was a guy who preached regarding the 5 storms of life that will come and go... Well this is just one of it... Bring it on!!
U guys have a great week!!~
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

iT has come to this...

2004-11-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

It has come to this...

Hey, yupe the moment that i've been waiting 4 has arrived. The decision for my student visa was finally released this morning. And very far from my liking, the result actually went against me, thus my student visa was still canceled. Now i guess im just waiting for the formal letter to be sent down which will tell me what to do next. I've never been in this kinda situation before. And to tell u the truth i got LOTS of THINGS goin' & runnin' thru my head.

But fortunately, im not God, im just a human being, im not in control, HE is in control, i know nothing, HE knows everything, i make mistakes, HE doesnt; in fact HE correct my mistakes.

So yah, even this morning i prayed while i was waiting, for God to give me victory, and i might not know or understand abt the whole situation that im currently in... n i might happen just thinkin abt short term victory, but i believe God heard my prayer. And He's giving me a long term victory.

Im having an imagination/vision atm, that in this situation Jesus is giving me a card... And as all card have, it has 2 sides on it, the front and the back side. Currently i can only see the front side, bcoz im focusing on it... (the problems...) But if i make myself lookin beyond it, i can see it has the back side of the card... but i dunno whats over there.

Anyway sorry if its a bit confusing, but i just took u for a journey round my head.
To be continued...

iT's that time oF the year...

2004-11-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

iT's that time oF the year...

Hullo!~ Yupe its that time of the year... The time has come where there's a day that i would actually go to the library, sit down, open up my books/lecture notes, pray, think abt it, then study. Bcoz exams are comin' soon.
But its that time again... where after 10 - 15 minutes, flippin thru pages, playin' with my pen, have a look around, think abt it, then i go online and surf the net lol. Bcoz nothing of sorts can get thru me head atm.... lol. I guess im not a library-kind-of-guy. ;D

Im sure u guys aint like me. if u are.... then dont be like me. ;) Thats just a piece of advice. Heheh... Coz I usually able to think better (not best, but a bit better than usual, believe me...i do get stressed out lol), or can actually concentrate on much deeper sense and level, when im under pressure. So yeah im a bit of last-minute-do-all-kinda-guy. Huhu... Gotta start changin' that... :P Huehue coz i do everything last minute, i just hope that umm... i wont wait til last minute of me life to actually met her.

Anyway i better go for lunch now... :P
Okok, so y'all exam-doers, whether u may b exam lovers, or exam haters. Best wishes to ya!! Remember to pray, Remember your Priority. Ja ne...
God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

ps: Ooooh, almost forgot... im gonna get 2 know the decision for my visa this wednesday morning. So plz help me in prayer. Thx a bunch! GB.

We are different...

2004-11-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

We are different...

I opened my eyes and see
We are different
I closed my eyes and feel
We are different

Thats the way it is
Is that how it'll be?
Lord lead my heart to peace
For i know, You will guide me

In the desperate hours its You i seek
In the joyful time its You i look

We are differentt
This fact i know
Meant for each other?
Only You know...

Ps: A cry from the heart thats dedicated to all my dear friends who are feeling uncertain over certain things in life.

In Him, we stand. ;)
God Bless.
Peace out.

We are different...

2004-11-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

Live Life 2 da Fullest...

2004-11-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

Live Life 2 da Fullest...

Yoohoo!!~ Z'up readers? Good yah? Well if ur feelin sick or not too good, then remember to get some good quality rest ay...
Actually i dont really know what i wanna write for the topic, and somehow even when i prayed this morning, i asked my beloved Father to guide my day thus that i'll live my life to the fullest for Your glory. Huehuehu....
Exams are comin' up really soon, So for u guys that are doin it... Just all the best that i can say :p
Study hard, n pray hard! ;)

Anyway regarding abt the title that i put... how do u live life to the fullest? I aint sure if i can give u the right answer but i guess the key as a friend of mine said is related to the joy in ur life. Well if u put into scale of 1-10 how joyful is your life?
Like for example, my friend helped me last nite arnd 11.55pm to shaved off my head and we were just laughin all the way. Huehuehue... Or making prank calls in the middle of the nite to some close friends (not recommended lol).
Its just getting the best with what u have... Granted that some of us might have a bad hair day or two or some of us even have 5 bad hair days in a week. lol But its not what u can complain to God what matters, its what u can give compliments to God when things aint going right. Now thats what i call Full!!~ Im sure by then God will give ya the fullness of joy. Hueheuh see it might not related to the topic, but yeah... Huehueh
okok la, live ur life to the fullest with ur mates, with ur family, with ur loved one, and of course with ur Big Daddy in heaven. ;)
Ja ne.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Catchin' up with ol' friends

2004-10-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

Hei, how u doin today? Good i hope.
Anyway yesterday i was just catchin up with some of my friends, the new ones, the ol' ones, the ones that i'll treasure 4 as long as i live. Coz i just been told that when eternity comes, and we reach home in heaven we actually wont recognize each other anymore. We are just gonna serve God, which is good. So i was thinkin in my heart, so that means, we only have this lifetime to know, to share, to love, ppl around us, and when u think abt it, life is unpredictable, and its quite a short journey for some of us. So i made a point yesterday to catch up with friends that made impacts upon me (big or small, aint matter, u guys made impact).
Huehuehu... i wrote up testimonials, send messages, call, sms, whatever, i just wanna be with my friends at that point but i couldnt hahah. :P
Anyway some friend that i long time no see, has changed dramastically, she just *shocked* me out of me skin!! I cant understand, and dont know what she went through in life. But Dang it!! It must've been rough & tough! Dang the circumstances that comes and go as it wishes!! Thank God for Jesus Christ!! My Lord, My God, My Saviour, My Best Friend!! If i didnt meet jesus, i dunno what i'll become. Thnk You Lord... really... thank You so much.
Dont take things 4 granted... i guess its true...
Anyway just gonna pray somemore for this friend of mine...
Im hoping that each time, i make a friend, the friendship is made to last...
Tho' it may not reach eternity, but it sure reached my heart.
God Bless Y'all Friends.
Peace Out.

What do u do when...?

2004-10-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

An interesting question that a friend of mine asked.
The Situation: Say u have a good friend (same gender) who starting to fall for a girl/guy that u happen 2b close with (as in friendship). You happen 2b in a situation where u actually share quite a lot with these 2 ppl. So while u were sharing u found out that the girl/guy is just aint attracted to this good friend of yours. So given the circumstances above... what do u do?
A.) You tell ur good friend straight in the face abt the truth, and nothing but the truth. Hoping that while his/her heart is crushed to bits and pieces, u r keepin it real...
B.) You give a li'l encouragement to your good friend regarding the chances, so that he/she wont be as sad, and crushed. And just pray and hoping for the best to come, and pray that God will handle the rest.
C.) You dont say anything, to anyone.
D.) You asked somebody else that might have the boldness and courage of a mad-dog to tell your good friend regarding the situation. ;D
E.) Others, i.e. _________ ?

Hueuhue, hmmmm i wonder what i'll do... mebbe its between a or b yah? Hahaha i think my friend chose A. but i wasnt sure lol.
Ok la post ur thoughts. God Bless.
Peace Out.

Quote, Unquote... Quote ur heart... :p

2004-10-25T19:12:00.000+08:00

Yellow, howdie y'all?
I had a busy week last week... Busy with God... lol. It has been such an awesome week... Been blessed with God's presence so much... But i want more!! Huehuehe...
Anyway while im not doing anything else, thought i just update my blog, n share a bit.
Im @ honggo's house at the moment, and soon, we gonna chop up some onions, for the sausage sizzles 2molo @ Curtin (11-2) it'll be $2 each. So yeah, bring ur coins, bring ur notes, grab ur mates, and come and buy "Flame-dogs" 2molo. :P
By the way... thru out the weekend i got this dang song stuck in my head... Must be coz of the Roy factor... He sang it @ Miracle Cafe last sat. (Nat King Cole - Love).

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

So yeah if u got nothing to do on saturday, grab ur mates, and come along to Miracle Cafe. Details in here

Anyhow... i was just wondering abt some love quotes... n somehow im kinda empty, and i cant think none... lol so yeah... some donations on the love quotes plz. Just post urs thru the comment link down the bottom. :p

Ok la, anyhow, have a great week. God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

Nothing to do...

2004-10-20T17:35:00.000+08:00

So... *AaAaaaaaAArrrrgggggggggggggGGGGgggggHhhhhhhhhhhh...*
:p

Thief... The thief...

2004-10-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hullo all. Feels so long since i updated my bloggie.
Wow, AGENT just had their orange night @ the bridge restaurant (Canning Highway). It was the first time we had a special function like that. It was great, but yet i think we lacked a bit of umm... i dunno. Lets just say that next time we (AGENT) will make sure that it'll be more organized. ;) But other than that, i hope ppl had fun, and made friends and connected. Overall it was a great job everyone. Thank you for working so hard, and putting lots of efforts into this. Especially a BIG thank you for the bridge team (Benny, Erwin, Ronald & team), the foods were great!!~ Huhuhu can i have more? :p
Anyhow, it seems like everywhere, everyone's in love... so where are you? Huhu tho' im takin a break, im still singin that song on my heart. Coz u just never know, when she/he gonna show up, rite?
Huhu just like in church this sunday, Uncle J was talkin abt how thief come unexpectedly... i guess in a way im waiting for the thief to come... not a real thief that steal my stuff (i'll beat u up!! lol) but rather The thief that'll come to steal my heart... Just when u least expected it... love comes knockin' on ur door... Right Honggi? Hahahha...
Ok la, im gonna ask my Father, wheres my thief? lol.
Have a good one guys. God Bless y'all.
Peace out.

Waiting time...

2004-10-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

G'day y'all... Z'up?! Hope y'all doing just fine. Great news, im recovering from my feverish time, and now i can jump around n act crazy all over again. lol jkjk. Coz i was sick, and i stayed at home most of the time, i felt like its been a long time since i do anything. ;p
Oh yeah, by the way, im doing a story (drama+comedy+romance) called in indo... Jangan Pilih Aku (Dont choose me...) Im only upto 35% of it, maybe less. It suppose to be a short story, but depends on the creativity mood it might turn into a long one. :p
Anyway its back 2 the topic... Its waiting time... I guess nearly in everyone's life, we experience this thing so-called 2b the waiting time... Huhu and most of the times the waiting time can be very annoying, and it can get to our heads so bad... Do you know what i meant? Like U dont wanna think abt it, and yet somehow, thats all we think abt at that point of time. Sigh lol, funny how that works huh?
Im guessing that some of us are currently in stages where we are actually waiting for something... waiting 2b called, waiting to eat, waiting to talk, waiting for her to talk to me, waiting for him to buy me this, waiting for something 'special' to come your way...
Im Currently waiting too... not just waiting for love lol, but im actually also waiting for the interview for my student visa. Its on 22 October!! Wah its like in 2 weeks. I better pray hard... ;)

Ok la just wanna say, sometimes waiting can be sux.... sometimes very very very veyr annoying.... But is the end result worth to be waited for? Haha i dont have the answer for that question... u do. Huehueh ok la happy waiting y'all. God Bless.
Peace out.

Jealousy Test...

2004-10-07T07:07:00.000+08:00

Try This

Results of "The Test"
How jealous are you?
Your score = 45

What does your score mean?

While you're certainly not immune to the occasional twinge of jealousy, you are generally able to balance envious feelings with a calm and logical attitude. When you feel an attack of the green-eyed monster coming on, you try to calm down and take an honest look at your feelings. If it's a small thing, like your girlfriend/boyfriend innocently chatting to an attractive stranger at a party, you are generally able to let it go - or at least restrain from blowing it out of proportion. If you decide you have legitimate reasons to be envious, you would likely express it; this is where things can go wrong if not handled with the utmost finesse. Do you verbally attack the "guilty party" or make harsh accusations before knowing the whole story? Jealousy is a natural emotion, but can become poison in any relationship. As long as you try to keep your slightly jealous nature in check, it shouldn't do any damage.

iZz0's back...

2004-10-06T19:18:00.000+08:00

Yowwie all!~
Yupe im back!!~ Huhuhu, but currently im having bad bad bad fever, which cause these unbearable headaches. Its like everytime i move my hand or my leg, or whichever part of my body, i'll have the headache. :(
Anyway, im just back from the church camp, up in Advent Park, Kalamunda; with my family. And its totally, really^2, undeniablyAwesome, great, fantastic. And if u guys watch oz idol, i like too use mark holden's term of Touchdown!!~ Huhuh Anyway the guest speaker was Amanda Wells, and she is totally a GREAT woman of God. I gotta say that im very much blessed to be able to go to the church camp. ;D And im hoping to do what i learnt.
The only bad thing abt the camp, was probably the fried rice, lol. Well its not exactly bad in sense of taste. But its more bad in terms of its limitation of variation. We had fried rice for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Huahuah its def one of the unforgetable memories.
Huehue ok anyway, im deeply in thoughts, i was thinking whether or not i should change the layout for my bloggie. Coz couple of my friends actually did that, and its tempting. So the voting line is now open.
Huhu ok la i better get some more rest. Have a great week, God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Yo...

2004-09-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

Due to preparation for exam, church camp, and other situation, there will be a slight delay in the update for this blog. :P
Till then, have a great week, take care, God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

Dilemma...

2004-09-22T10:36:00.000+08:00

Moshi^2!!~ Hhuehue im in the middle of a class atm... and the lecturer is marking asignment with diff groups, my group wil probably the last group he'll mark. So i thought while waiting im gonna update my bloggie. :P

Heheh, im watching anime called one piece, courtesy of Kenneth. Arigato ne kenneth-san. ;)
Wah i thought the anime is gonna be a lousy one, but it turns out 2b really good, funny, touching, and tells u a lot how important is it to take care of your nakama. Nakama in japanese means more deep than just a companion, friends, a group, your life-journey partners. and unfortunately there's no such word in english. :P I dont usually cry during movies, or whatever... But somehow this anime has a great touching stories which made me cry... -_-; Anyway its a good anime overall tho sometimes the stories get a bit long. huehuehue

Ok lets talk abt dilemma, Since 2 of my friends n i were touching a bit on this thing called 'dilemma'. Huhu
Dilemma:
Usage Note: In its main sense dilemma refers to a situation in which a choice must be made between alternative courses of action or argument.
Hoho how bout that for a definition huh? Wahaha got it from dictionary.com
But yeah, tho' im taking a break from lookin for my final piece of life, i cant seem to run away from this thing called dilemma. As much as i wanted to avoid it, but it just came over me again and again. While 1 dilemma gone, others coming in. Wahahah... So questions is.... what do you need to consider when you're facing a dilemma? (Dilemma is not necessarily ur love life, u tweet!) huehue... Okok U guys have a great day, All the best in ur upcoming tasks in life.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

i .... u

2004-09-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

The unspoken word...
Its just a single word, yet somehow it has such a deep and big impact. It depend on what the word is... it can be miss, hate, like, love, etc...
Its just a single word, yet sometimes it so hard to say... BLAST!!~ wahahaha
*Error mode: On*
*Crazy mode: On*
ArrrrGGgggghhhHHhh....
Huehuehue ever got this kinda feeling b4? When u lost 4 words to say... Huhuhu

How do u...?

2004-09-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

Yo, wazzup? Today is saturday, and the time is 10.20pm. Currently im bored, n feelin a bit weird... lol nevermind... But b4 i started to write something regarding the topic, i just wanna say thank you, to Uncle JiM, Huehuhee abt 9 of us was given a Big treat tonite... Uncle J treated us sushi buffet in JAWS, awww man im a sucker for foods... And today i ate 'till i think my tummy was a bout to blow!!~ Gosh, i was gonna burp, but i scared that something else might come up too... *GRiN* Huehuehe anyway thx a bunch!!~
Anyway with "the break" that im having, and the ppl surrounding, and my past experience.... im just gonna ask u guys and gals a question that im sure u guys have in mind at some certain point.
Situation: You've made up great friendship with a person that has the opposite sex as u do. Ur friendship has become great, if not one of the best. Somehow, u have a diff. certain feeling for her/him, Yet somehow becoz of this feeling, the thought of losing that precious friendship sailed accross ur mind and stayed as ur thoughts of the weeks (lol)... How do u deal with this 'feeling and emotion'?
Im not an expert in relationship... But in the past i managed to somehow blurted out what i felt towards the person ("my friend"). But coz of stuff happened, somehow we just stayed as friends. And although as much as i like to doubt it, it hurts.... And our friendships wasnt as close as we used to be.... that sux rite? lol Dunno whether it has happened b4 in the past.... but yeah, we all need some tips to keep our friendship and BGR relationship in the balance.
Experts, Love doctors, Friends, Mentors, Pour out ur stories and tips right on the comment(s) box!~ God Bless Y'all! Have a great weekend.
Peace out.

iTs Gettin' Hot in 'ere!!~

2004-09-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

Hello, well i suppose to write its gettin' bussy in here (uni) bleh, but somehow i just put a diff title. huehue... Anyway yah as the seconds turns to minutes, to hours, to days, to weeks... the time seem went so fast... without knowing, im currently placed in the middle of bussy week, which cramped with lots of assignments, and tests. Brrrr.... Lets do this thing with Faith^Style!!
BrinG it on!!~

Since im still on vacation waiting for my love to pass me by, i currently been given some pretty hard tasks to play matchmaker. Huhu which i dont mind doing... Well at the end of the day Jesus, is the matchmaker, and im sure He's gonna be my matchmaker too. ;) So hopefully He might use me, to play a li'l part to matchmaking ppl. :p Well currently im matchmakin 2 couples (2 male + 2 females) To the opposite sex of course, otherwise ill be gay matchmaking...
-_-; YuCk!!~
Im not gonna say that these ppl are the easiest couple to matchmaked, in fact 1 of the couple is prob the hardest one so far... But fear not, All things are possible!! Muahahahahahah... Oh Lord have mercy on moi! :P
Ok la, im at library atm, so write more later lah, But for now its, Adios from moi!!~ Have a pleasant day and week! God Bless Y'all!~
Peace out.

Quick note...

2004-09-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hey y'all just a quickie from me. So far today has been fantastic!~ Got a great sunday service, God's presence was just overwhelming. Im just amaze on the things that He can do.
Anyway i had just finnished playing soccer with some of the guys... Wah i tell u man, after more or less abt 2 years never do sports, then having run all the way has been EXTREMELY TIRING!!~ lol but nevertheless it was good.
*NEWS-FLASH* Yeah im taking a break from finding "the one", n just cruisin' along the road with my wonderFULL friendz... wanting 1, no doubt about it, but not looking atm... hahah how is that possible?!? Im sure its gonna be a QUICK break then... wahahah :P

OoooooOOoooh almost forgot... we were suppose to went to Youth alive concert + conference last saturday nite... but dang man, it was PACKED to the roof!!~ OmGoshhh... it was so FULL.... So my friendz n i decided to have a concert of our own. We went karaoke, kekeke.... it was a great break...
Thank you God, Thank you friendz... You guys made my week faboulous!!~
Ok la now to continue on my assignmentzzzzzzzzzzz.
God Bless Y'all!~
Peace out.

Where do i stand?

2004-09-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

Yellow!!~ Huehue finally i get my self updating my blog after quite a bit. Wah its been so long, i kinda forget how to do stuff already. :P Its been sooooo long that i dont even know where to start. Its been so long since im holding somebody hand. Wait a minute, where am i going with all these.... ;p
Anyway today i had my my cell group, a.k.a Curtin3+CiC which RoX 2 the maX!!~ ;) And i had the honour to lead the discussion... i think the group's awesome! But i do still wanna grow in quality and quantity */Chris give hints to the curtin 3 leader 2 do more job* Muahahah na lah just kidding, as ms.Christy defined it today, it is not hers, or mine, or honggo, or ika, or roy's, it is OUR care group, so everyone must do their part, then God'll do His part. Was sharing on when and how we all received the precious gift of salvation, which turns out to be very interesting storytelling 4 all. Ahhhh the good ol' days. ;)
After had our care group, we went to somerville cafe to eat... MmmMmM Yummy... anyway we got talking about whats HOT today.... or more like WHOS HOT TODAY?? *BiG GRiN* Not gossiping lah, i would never gossip... i dont know how.... i think.... :P

Anyway i made this poem for a friend... enjoy (btw its just a rough draft) :P

Where do i stand

Walking this road of life
Met u thru God’s plan
My heart set to dive
Guided by God’s hand

I found my self lookin at you
I found my self lost by you
I take chances for you
I give my heart to you

My emotions are obvious
Fragility of my heart aint matter no more
All because of you
Yet, where do I stand?

Your dazzling presence I see everyday
Your sweet voice I hear everyday
Yet, what am i?
So where do i stand?

Hullo hullo!!~

2004-09-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

Hello hello, u beautifull ppl, WhaTs hoT 2day?!? Well today is the 1rst day of spring, yess!! so u can say kiss ma bum to the winter!! Yeeehhaaa but how come its getting colder yah? wahahah
Anyway im actually having a class at the moment. And updating blogspot is what us dillegent pupils do. ;) Anyway these 3 last days i've been doing things, that i havent even think to do b4...
Its been great weeks to some ppl, and not so great to some others.... well as for me i guess im a bit in between.... OOps teacher is watching me already.... 2b continued....

it's you...

2004-08-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TELL A GUY
If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walkbeside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear myheartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am no where I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with

Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.

"HOW THE GUY REPLY"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walkbeside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear yourheartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around, Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

In everything, give thx...

2004-08-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

Glory b 2 God, who never leave us nor forsake us. Thank You Lord, for in times when im weak You have shown Yourself to be strong. Really^2 tired and got some mixed feelings... but despite everything... God is good. ;)

Anyway, we just had the AfLaMe SpiCe FeStiVaL... it was rox, God bless y'all whos participate, and for those who's given their best for God, y'all RoX... The Music Band, The sound system, Logistics, usher, security, foods, games, drama, uncle and auntie...and everyone else. Y'all did great. As we do our part, God will do His part... n i believe He did just that.

Then there's tomorrow's sunday celebration. Tho really tired, and stuff but really lookin foward to it. Ok la just gonna grab some sleep... Have a great weekend guys. God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Note

2004-08-25T17:21:00.000+08:00

Due to the *EXCITEMENT* and the *HEAT* from the final preparation of Aflame Spice Festival and the Sunday celebration, i do wanna apologize for the delay of the update thats gonna take place, presumably within next week or so. (Cieeeehhh Wakakakak)
Anyway iye, coz these last 2 or 3 days gonna be packed with FULL practices, reherseal, and some shopping for some of the equipments, i prob wont be able to do some update. Note: plz come along to the festival. For more details, just leave comments here. :P iTs GonnA b GrueeaaTtTTtT!

Anyway i got some cool songssss, sooo nice. I was lookin for some songs for my friend, then i found this one by delta goodrem, with the title - What is love. It turns out to be a really^2 good song!!~ Yay!!~ So im gonna put it up here on my bloggie. Have a great week Guys, God Bless!!
Peace out.

Accidentally in love. R u?

2004-08-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

Yellow!!~ Bussy and bussy week, tired, cramped out with all the practices, shop around some stuff for anniversary, and other activities, but what the hey, bring it on!!~ iF God's with us who can b against us!! Anyhow in these busy weeks im trying to keep my faithfulness upon my blog :P huehue... I just got this song yesterday (accidentally in love - Counting crows) n i love it ay!!~ :D Mebbe since it got the word love, and i wanna b in looooooveee so much, but its not my time yet. Hihi... I got heaps of songs last week and the one that i like so much atm is burn, angel eyes, yeah, i dont wanna know, i dont wanna be, simple things, and accidentally in love!~ Aww mann all kool songs!!~ ;)
Anyway the first 2 verse in the song (accidentally in love) by Counting Crows (strange name)
Goes as follow :

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every timeI think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Well as gg tried to explained it last time to me with her best effort, i guess i havent been in love just yet... But i really want when i fall, i fall to the right person. Lord as always i ask for Your guidance. :)
Do u guys think that a couple can be accidentally in love? Is that always the case? Huahauha... Well i think so, coz i think u cant choose when u wanna fall in love. But then again i dont know nothin but love. :P Oh well have a grueaatt weekend guys. God BLesS, and peace out.

Bring it on...

2004-08-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Testing always preceeds promotion.
Hey y'all, sup? Yeah i finally am able to update my blog... Since i've been kinda busy with church anniversary's preparations, and some game's addiction. :P Anyhow i had dance practice this afternoon, it was great, we practically can remember the moves, but somehow still have to practice for the moves to be united (same timing) :P wahahah coz sometimes when i was doing some movements, the others actually already doing the other moves lol. T__T We also went to harbour town to find some clothes for the events, but we havent got the "right" one. Its ok, im a bit used to with waiting. WAHAHAha... ;P

Just got back from r^se leadeships in riverview church. The guest speaker came from some part in america, his name is Kevin something, i forgot... :P Anyway he was really good, it really motivates and encourage me to do even better for God, to give even more from what i have to Him, to change to progress, to look above and beyond, and rise up to the occasion. :P

Well i believe during our time in this earth, our life will not escape from the things called testing, problems, difficulties, circumstances. Well Kevin taught us to take testing as an opportunity. An opportunity to improve our character, etc. Coz i belive no matter what problems we have, what difficulties we may have to overcome, He is always watching... watching what actions we would take. Will we run and walk away? or will we stand our ground and fight by the spirit of God. He is next to you always. :)

Every tests is an opportunity. And since i can honestly say that i am currently facing testings, the message today really somehow encourage me... so thank You Lord. You really knows best.
Troubles, problems, Testings, i'd say bring it on baby!!~ ;p

God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

PS: Omg, i suddenly had 3 pimples on my face overnight, i know that im thinkin of a girl or maybe 2, lol But 3?? OMG Lord have mercy on me, n my face... ^.^ Draw my mind from thinkin lots of girls into just one, the one from You. :)

Wah i remember this... :P

2004-08-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

U gotta look where u goin'

2004-08-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hullo!~ ^.^
Wah today i got something that i learnt during the day. :p

Incident no 1:
Ok so i went for lunch this afternoon to wong hawkers in karawara, i took bus no.34. I was walkin' from the bus stop towards the restaurant, i was just whistling around some random songs that was in my head and lookin foward, then in the middle of the way i looked down, n when i looked down there was suddenly a BIG german shepherd dog 30 cm from my right leg. And i could swear that my hair actually grew longer at that time, i got goosebumps all over the place, and i almost had a mild heart attack. LOL i m not scared of dog, i was suprised, too suprised!!~

Incident no 2:
After i ate my lunch i went back to the bus stop to catch the no 34 bus on the opposite lane to go to curtin, then go back home. I had 10 minutes to wait, so i decided to sat down on the bus stop, since no one else seems to be waiting. Then i decided to check once again for the bus' timetable, but when i was abt to stand up, my trousers actually was a bit stuck to the chair. So i was like what the hey, i look down to the chair, and i noticed that i was seating on a chair that had some coke's spills all over the chair (it was already dry, and it was sticky...). I checked hows my trousers doing, and since i was wearing a light brown trousers, the coke's spills that was on my pants actually look like i just took a s!@# on my pants. D'oH!!!!~ Or it looked a bit like i sat on a dog/cat/horse/monkey's poo-poo-poo.... GRuuuuUuuuuEATTTT!!~ D'oH!!~

Sigh... Hence by having these incidents i realised that sometimes u cant always look foward when you are walkin (or during your life journey), u gotta look up, down, left, right, back (who knows someone or *SOMEBODY* might need ur help). It also taught me that i shouldnt keep on thinkin abt pretty girls... especially *ehem-ehem no.1* and *ehem-ehem no.2* and *ehem-ehem no.3* , n0. 4, n so on... lol jk.

Hihi okok God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

ps: Happy B'day to my special cousin Yuana!!~

U prefer?

2004-08-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

2 Love someone u love, or 2b Love by someone u love? (Prefer is defined as having 1 option only).
My eyes are practically half-closed... -_-;
Anyway everything is beautiful in His time. ;D
G'nite... God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

The Magic of Love

2004-08-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

Lol no b4 u read this blog, it wont b just another love story.
Actually gonna tell u bit more abt the Aflame Spice Festival (Our Church 8th anniversary). Its in 2 weeks time!!~ Oh my Lord!!~ And during these last weeks i just get to know how is it to become a busy person. lol Got soooo many practices, school stuff, etc. But yeah since uncle's preaching was sooo Great last week. I kept on remembering while u still in ur youths, dont waste time in serving Him with what u have. In a way im really grateful that im saved, its so amazing what transformation that i've been through. I cant even believe it myself wahahaha. Well 2000 years ago, Jesus Christ came to give everything that He has in order so that we might gain everything. So i think i can never repay Him, no matter how hard i serve Him, or praise Him, or bless Him. Coz i have nothing that comes from me anyway, everything comes from Him. So with all the things He gave me, i guess i want to say thank You, by using the resources that He gave me. Im sure all my bro n sis in church also feeling similarly blessed.
Hmm Your ways never cease to amaze me o Lord. The magic of Your love transformed this blind soul, into something that i can never imagine. The magic of Jesus Christ.

Try to listen to the song in my Blog Here i am - Planet shakers, then close ur eyes, let ur mind wonder led by SomeOne. ;) Let the magic of Love do some wonders in Your life.

Tired but blessed. God Blessed Y'all.
Peace out.

ps: Btw Happy Weekend guys.

White Chicks

2004-08-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, how u been? Haha these few days has been really^2 great. I just bought the new planet shakers cd n dvd, with uncle's gift of koorong voucher. I got off quite cheap. :PHuheuhue thx uncle Jim!
Anyway today is quite tiring day... i went to city around 1pm to go for lunch, then i decided to go straight to go to garden city and waited there until 7pm for the movie. Coz i feel lazy 2 go home n go again. Wah BIG mistake... lol The malls in oz and indo is very diff. I usually can stand around and walk around the malls in indo for hours, but here is sooo boring huehueh... didnt know what to do, so just look around. -_-;

However, the movie White Chicks was worth the wait i guess... lol coz itss just extremely hilarious. And i laugh^2 so harddd and long, til i cry hahahahha. Better see it to believe me, i thought it was gonna b soso funny only, But it proved me wrond. Yach its like that la so u better go n see it!!~ :D

Anyway saw this pic on the net.... i guess when ur in love, everything is just beautiful...

Ok la God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Here i am

2004-08-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Here i am by Planet Shakers

Something in my heart
Burning like a fire
I want to live for You

Need Your touch right now
Fill me with Your power
Power to live for You my God

I will not be moved
I will stand for You

I will go where You send me
Jesus take me now I am Yours
I am Yours
Lay my life on the altar
Everything I give to You alone

Here I am
Here I am

Here I am send me

Why you? -BLaNK-

2004-08-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

iF i look u afar from a distance, n outside, ur not different with any other girls.
iF i look u from inside in, ur not different with any other girls. With the same kindness and gentleness, n yet fragile like other girls.
iF i wanted to compare u with some other gals that i know, which i wont do; u r similar among ur peers. So Lord, what is it from her that attract my heart so much?
Is iT her smile? is iT her laugh? is iT her joy in You?
What made her different from the others O'Lord.
iF its not Ur will Lord, i cry and pray that u might close the door of this heart gently.
iF its from U Lord, then i cry and pray that she might pray the same thing as i.
iZz0.

Lookin back a bit... ^o^

2004-08-10T02:42:00.000+08:00

Hullo!~ Greetings ppl!~ ^^ Wah ppl can change yach lol... I've just got these pics. Well i havent see this friend of mine for quite a while. This gal's name is Eunmi,

Eunmi

Eunmi2

shes my only korean friend atm. Hahah not too close nemore tho', altho used 2b quite close yah. :P Wah gal u've become more pretty le!!~ omg ^0^ Congratz for whoever u goin out with now, may God Bless u in everything yach. Need to catch up with u more!! Miss u guys a LOT. But i guess God calling me to Oz not Nz, im keepin the good time, the bad time in my heart. ^^ This goes also to my good frndz in NZ, auckland, esp. John, Jerry, Chrisper, Mona, Mele, Wei, Fred, Wai, Tom, Jo, Amanda, Andrew, Simon, Anna... lol omg i cant remember the names already ahahah... well its been 3 years or more, plz forgive me lol :P I guess i've changed a LOT if i look back to my days in Nz. I was reckless, arrogant, Loud, foolish, Jealous, easy to get mad, n yet entertaining. ^^
But the biggest change, the most important change, and the BEST change that i had in Oz, is that i found Jesus in my heart. :P I felt God's love n grace upon me. I got my salvation here, my water baptism here, my Holy spirit baptism here, n LOTS more. He gave me new friendz, great friendz here!!~ Yay!!~ I guess i wont take it as a regret not able to go back to nz, but more as a blessing to b in oz and had been in NZ. But someday i'll come back there just to visit. Huehue but i dunno the future, only God does. Well Anyway flashback is over, its time to step foward, n i thank God that i can meet ppl around me. All i can say is that im blessed. Thank You Lord God, Thank You guys. GBY'all.
Peace out.

SMS...

2004-08-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hey y'all its 12.17Am on a sunday morning. HAhahah OoooOoo Man!!~ After i went 2 MC (miracle cafe) this afternoon i went again to JAWS to ate the all u can eat thingie with Ado. OMG i ate 19 plates only this time. ;D Then i went home n just went straight 2 bed hoping just to wake up in the morning by 7 Am to go to Music Practice... But what the heyyy im awake now!! -_-; I do hope to get some more sleep again soon. Anyway i had this sms from a good friend of mine in NZ, i think i had a similar posting abt this. Great minds think alike. Thnk you 4 the sms!!~ :P

Sometimes
LiFe geTs
So Busy

i CouldnT
EvEn sAy Hi

mAke
A cALL

Or SenD
a RePLy

But iT DoeSnT
mEaN i 4geT u...

CoZ iN mY
HeArT...

i KeeP you!~

God Bless Y'all.
Peace Out.

Worth iT?

2004-08-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

Halo ppl ;)
Great to b back writing, as these last couple of days i wasnt able to log in to blogspot.com 4 some reasons. Anyway this posting might not concern some of you, n it might. So if it doesnt concern u, then ignore it. But if it does then u gotta do somethin' bout it. ;P
Ok so basically the stories started on wed nite prayer... as u ppl mite now on that wed. we had a blast on the Guild day in Curtin. A BiG yay 4 AGENT (Aflame GENeraTion), and honestly i was really tired n i was having a throatache. So i didnt wanna go to the prayer, but i decided to go. Only 6 of us made it that nite... And Auntie was 1 of em. Auntie was sharing how she felt that the church is currently in the stage of stagnation, where many of us; includin my self, have been relaxin 2 much, a bit lukewarm, n 2 comfortable in our own zone. I for one also have the tendency of counting on other ppl too much... oh she will do this, or he will do that. lol... So anyway we prayed, n prayed, n God just moved so powerfully. And i ended up havin' a blast that nite. He is AmaZinG... ;D
Soo continuing on... i am currently having lots of problems, it seems like problems keep on comin'. So many things r in my head. It seems like everythin that i do is wrong. ;( I guess being a christian is not easy yah... huehue i was really discourage today... dunno y either i guess too many things on my mind le. Then i even heard a voice in my mind... Just give up... its not worth it... Does the things that you're doing worth it? Then i was like hang on a sec... this doesnt sound like God... lol Then i quickly prayed, n keep on saying like i wont give up, my calling is worth it.... You lead me to this, so shall You lead me through this.

Soooo question for the day... Is God's calling in ur life worth the troubles n problems u have? If yes then better ask God to re-ignite that fire in ur heart. Do what is right. Do ur part to re-strength the yourself and the church. Dont b 2 relax n comfy. Secure ur calling. If you think its not worth it... then its time 2 pray harder till u know that it is worth it. :D
A body cannot function if only 1 or 2 parts of it are working....
But hey as i said... this topic might or might not concern u.
Bless n b Blessed.
God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

fRiENDz...

2004-08-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hello again... during these few days the word fRiENDsHiP keeps on comin 2 my head, mind, n heart.
On wednesday prayer nite, we were praying for our brothers n sisters who've been backsliding from the Lord. I dunno y, mebbe coz these last 2 weeks our pastor preached abt baclslide ppl. Somehow currently i can just feel now how it actually hurt me to see my friends who've been slowly but sure backslidin... Gotta start doin somethin'.... even taking a step at a time its ok. Coz step by step u can move foward, if u aint stepin, u will not move.
Yesterday i was doin my readin... n got a really good verse again its about friendship. Its from Ruth 1:1-19 But the main verse that got me is this one... "Dont beg me to leave you or to stop following you. Where you go, i will go. Where you live, i will live... where you die, i will die" (NCV). True friends stand by you, n with you; always, in good times in bad times, & in ugly times. Really thankful 4 Friends He gave me when i need companion. It actually aint hard to maintain friendship as long as u know the key points, effort and commitment.

This morning i also watched Garfield... It also speaks abt friendship. :p

At the moment im havin bit of a mixture feelin... im feelin happy 4 all the friends that i have, seen and unseen. The ones that stick by n with me, the ones that support me, the ones that i share with, the ones that trust and believe in me, the ones that help me 2 stand up, the ones that care 4 me. Thank you is all i can say, pray4u is all i can do. But im feelin a bit sad atm too... coz... im not suppose to say this... but lets just say that a really good friend of mine is goin back 4 good. ;(

Oh well... all i can say is... really^2 do treasure ur friends... Friendships cant be bought... its built. Feel like u have been far from some of ur friends? I think its time to take a step foward n make the effort. Call them up, sms 'em, talk to 'em, do whatever.
Let the picture below speaks to u.

u & i :)

Have a blessed day. God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Forbidden Love

2004-08-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hello u! I think most of us had a very busy week last week. And its gettin chilly, cold, n raining... So better put on the effort of wearing an extra layer of clothes. Not gonna write anything much. Just wanna ask somthin... u c, i had lunch with couple of my friends, while i was eatin, we were talkin'... n i dunno how, but i went n said the term 'forbidden love'. Soon as i said that i heard the girls sighin... lol haha... Anyway what does it mean 2 u guys? Does it apply to u b4? :P
Ok la its gettin cold... so yeah take care of y' bodies eh..
GBY'all.
Peace out.

Joe John...

2004-07-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

Hey y'all, finally after quite some times i got a bit of free time on me. :P
This morning i was suppose to wake up @ 9am for drama shootin. But being me...i woke up @ 10 :P haha thx for mago 4 pickin me up.
So we went to the location in Honggo's coz i needed to do some retake n finnalize the ad. ;( Wah this morning already feelin a bit tired.... but after the shootin all done (abt 3.50pm) my leg just gave away.... >.<>miracle cafe!!~ Noooo!!!!!~

Anyway gonna tell u a bit of the character that im acting.... my character is a geeky proffesor, whose name is Joe John. Cool name eh? Hhuahuahu Anyway im suppose 2b a real genius who are able to create or invent all things.... n my latest invention are called the miracle patch which functions are to loosen up nasty fats in ppl's body. Just patch it up in the fatten areas and within a few days u'll loose weight... Satisfaction guaranteed. ;) HahaH Anyway u can know more by comming to the 8th Anniversary of Aflame Community Church on 28 & 29 Aug :D

Anyway i had a bit problem in gettin the "chubby" person to play in the ad... coz nobody wanna do it. lol. So finnaly in my state of desperation i cried out to the Lord, n as soon as He heard my cry... He took His mobile (optus) n called Michael n said... "Yo wat up big mike, howzit hangin Bo'?" Mick then answered... yeah not too bad Lord, so u were abt to gave me a BMW 7 series was it? Then the Lord reply nah... i thought i promised that for next christmas bo'? Anyway my cool buddy Chris is havin a bit of a problem in finding a good actor for his new upcomin ad. N i think bein cool that u are Mike... u can b it. So y'wanna do it bo'? Then Mick replied... Yea'Al'ritey y not? i'll give it a go... ;D
Lol so yeah a BIG thx 2 the Lord n Mick for makin it happen ;P We then had to 'costume' Mick up ala nutty proffesor. :D Being a great actor that he is n a hand of everyone it was done in a jiffy. But bein' not cool as Mick is i had to retake my shots this morning, n to finnalise it... n it took me a LONGG time AHhaHAha.... coz i couldnt memorize the Line!!~ Dang ittt!!~ HAhahAH oo well its done... but i dont think its good... so i mite ask mia to do 1 more take :P But i aint sure.
Anyway a BiG thx 4 Mick, Mia, Hans, Roy, Kenneth, Andreas, Reynard, n everyone else who help out. ;D
iT was soo funny... the ad i meant, not me... but the ad... :D u'll see soon... :D
ok la thats it for me. Like my friends said.... whatsHOTtoday saying goodbye :P
and God Bless Y'all.
Peace out.

Sooper dooper tired...

2004-07-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hmmm its been a sooper looonng dayy 4 me... i slept around 3am last nite n woke up arnd 9am... I was trying to race with time... as i had a really tight schedule... had 2 go 2 bank, go to uni, then go to friends house to do shooting for the drama ad, then got music practice. After that had dinner with friends... n a friend of mine shared really^2 funny stuff abt her past HahaH... :D
Anyway the time is 12.31am... n i just got back home. N i found out that i needed to do a re-take for the drama ad. So have to wake up early 2molo morning. sighh awwww noooo!!~

Gonna share a bit 2molo abt the drama ad, n more abt loveeeee :D but now i think im goin 2 bed lol. So yeah its to be continued...
GBY'all
Peace out.

Love strikes back... ;D

2004-07-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

It seems like love has strikes back!!~ It seems like everywhere everyone's in love... so where are you?
2nd sentence was take from M2M the band... but it seems appropriate... ;P
Anyway back to the topic. Whats up with love?? Suddenly i heard from my friends almost simultaneously that they are on the verge of fallin in love. lol Congrats^2 deh yach.
Good luck with whoever u guys n gals are goin 4 ^o^. Anyway obviously love is a never ending process that we are learning... its like a process... well thats my way of explaining abt love anyway. So 4 myself i wouldnt believe in love @ first sight unfortunately. ;( Although the term love @ first sight is very temptin :P Hihi... But obviously ppl have different outside form n inside form. There are lots of ppl that has beautifull outside appearance. But that aint what make ppl interesting. It is the inside form that make each one of us so unique, n damn interesting.
Hmmm so how do u fall in love then? Hahahaha... lets rephrase that question into... how does a person able to like another person? (ie. How do they get attracted to each other?) is it just happen like that? is it planned or unplanned?
Well 2 bad i dont think i've fallen in love b4... so i wouldnt know ;( But i got attracted to some gals quite easily (dang it!!~) n that feel awesome too :P soo if attraction already feel soo good, then love should be better no? Actually my friend gg, explained to me last nite... lol but i forgot!~ huahuahua and since i just formatted my comp coz of some virus so i lost it!!~ ;(
Now sometimes i wonder... which is worse? to have a one sided love, or to get dumped? i guess both will feel bad but i dunno... i seem to have it all the time. XD Heuheu i dunno i reckon 1 sided love is more sad... coz if u get dumped at least u already share a bit of ur heart 2 the other person. O well i think thats it la. Sorry if u guys dont get my writtin this time... i sort of just have to let it out. ;p Soo its love season y'all!!~ Good luck all!! ^o^
GBY'all!!~
Peace out.

Wishin..

2004-07-26T11:52:00.000+08:00

HePi B'day Oliph...
Wahaha sorry i didnt chucked u into swan river last nite... i was sleepy n tired!!~ wahaha ok la have a blast this year... may u b the peacemaker among ur family. lol ;D

(To b continued 4 today)

Off 2 bed...-_-;

2004-07-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hullo... its been a long n tiring day.... but i can say that im so blessed today. Thank God 4 Friends.... Hmm today i know 1 of the girl's name from utopia bubble tea... her name is Jasmine How do i know? i dont even wanna talk abt it actually... lol. Anyway i think im goin 2 bed now coz my eyelids are practically closin'... its sooo HEAVY... >.<
GBY'all.
Peace out.

Btw just an interesting pic that i found on the net... is this true? sigh i wish i know.... but for the moment i do need someone (preferably a girl) to give me a massage.... if u interested plz ask for an application form from Chris... Wahahahhaha :P

Man on Fire...

2004-07-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hola ppl!~ ;) How y'all been? Good i hope anyway. Today is saturday... n on this beatiful day, not only i've been blessed with such a great day. But also blessed with His presence upon my life. Today i went to Miracle Cafe, n it was sooooo full... lol soo great to see so many ppl turn up for the cafe. God is good n faithfull. Also i wanna give a round of applause esp. to the MC band, who did a fantastic job creating such lively environment (Roy, Hari, Hendra, Kenneth, Ado, Tata, Melloi). And the ppl who served in the kitchen were also fabolous (Selloi, Yen, Olivia, Marini, michael, n Rhys) Sorry if i lefted somebody... my mind is a bit rusty ;P But its so great to see the body work hand in hand to serve ppl around in our community. :)

Anyhow i went to Kubu n gelare n Soto ambengan afterward with Roy n Ado...
So we rented the movie called "Man on Fire".

Man on fire

Got 1 of my favourite actor who acts in it, DenZeL Washington. Man he is such a gifted and talented actor. Little Dakota fanning was also in it. And i gotta tell u this movie is so goood, i didnt cry... but i did shed a tear.

Pita & Creasy

I'm just gonna give the basic storyline, so u ppl can go see it 4urself. The story is abt how often kidnappin happens these days around the world, and pita (dakota fanning) was 1 of the unfortunate victim. In this movie Denzel played a character named creasy who was suppose 2b the bodyguard 4 pita. N things happened such as the kidnappin... n how creasy used any way possible to get to the kidnapper.

...

Dakota Fanning (Pita)

Anyhow its really good y'all. So yeah.... lol anyway thats my day 4 today. tomolo church.... Yiipeee!!~
Ok la, thats it 4 now. GBY'all.
Peace out.

"Sometimes my mind wonder, is it really you that im thinkin bout..."

Chillin' out with the boys...

2004-07-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hmmm actually im really tired but what the hey... Tonite was a boys nite out. :P We didnt actually planned it... but it just sort of happened. Started with Roy who dropped by @ my place to sorted out his Blog. Check it out yo guys... its MiNt!!~ Huehue then kenneth also came by, n we went to carousel to look 4 a gift for a friend whos celebratin her bday today. After puttin Much EFFORT lookin for the right gift we still couldnt find it. So we decided to look around some more... which ended up that we bought a li'l somethin 4 ourselves 1rst. HahA...

We actually managed to watch I, Robot. Little did we know Ado was also gonna see it, so we got together 4 the movie. Its an ok movie i think... not that good, also not bad. But as far as the actor acts, special effects, technology, n the sound effects it was pure quality!!~ Storyline is quite interesting which makes u guessin the whole time. So i wont spoil u with the story... if u wanna see it go n see it, if u dont then it aint my problem. :)

i, ROBOT
Photo © Copyright 20th Century Fox

Sunny, Photo © Copyright 20th Century Fox

Hmm...
Photo © Copyright 20th Century Fox

Afterwards we decided to go 1 more round at carousel to look 4 the gift since it was a late nite shopping. At last we found the 'right-stuff'... We bought her a Pink G-string. Wakakaka nah just kiddin... Coz we were thinkin of buyin somethin that she might not have. Anyway we got her a t-shirt. Then we settled our dinner @ hans cafe. So yeah thats pretty much my day out with the boyz.

And ending the topic for the day... The boyz were discussing how we cant seem to find the right girl from inside the church. Is it neccesarry to go lookin in other churches? lol Or just use Kezia's way... Bring a cool guy called Eugene to church, then go out with him. lol Oh well despite the roads that they went through Eugene n Kezia are really blessed with each other. But im reawlly impressed with Eugene's determination... He determined that kezia was the one for him... n just go all the way... Hmm then i wonder how do u know that she was the one? lol mebbe i need to interview him. Well in truth, determination is something that i've been missing for quite a while.
Hmmm time to stop flirting around with the gals n pray harder to seek the one i guess. ;p O well im still YOUNG!!~ YesssS!!~ So dont need to worry 2 much :P But Lord i dont mind waiting less. ;D Hihi
ok la GBY'all!!~
Peace out.

4 All you've done...

2004-07-22T02:08:00.000+08:00

Yup^2 i woke up @ 7.30Am today n Was readyin up u know... shower, gel my hair up, brush my teeth, looked in the mirror n saw is that me? wow... LOL HAHahAHAHa ;D Anyway opened up the door and... WHUSSSSHHHH (Bablas angine...) FAr out.... it was raining hard... and was soooo windy.. so all that 'dressin up' was all for nothin... O well Anyway i got my new cic card.. n soon my curtin card hauhauha!~ YEssssSS!!~

Anyway i had the 'skit-drama' meeting this afternoon... n as usual all came late ;( Anyhow we were discussing in more depths bout each of our character... btw i think there will b 4 diff character each with uniqueness n 1 mc... There will b Marco, Shienny, Eguene (the mc), n me... 1 more i think it'll b okky or ivana.. but i think it'll b okky... Anyway i wont tell the story... but i gotta tell u i hadnt laughed so hard b4 in my life like this afternoon.... We all made up some crazy storiess and i couldnt control myself... n neither can they... we were laughin like maniacs..lol Hilarious is the word 2 use. Anyway just get ready too see some kool stuff.. hopefully i wont get stage fright Brr.... Then we had our prayer night... wah lots of ppl came 2nite... n trully it was awesome... as usual, i didnt know what 2 pray, lol but once i opened up my mouth words were just put into it... :)
Afterwards coz i had the meetin so i didnt had a chance 2 grab dinner.... HikZ HikZ.... Fortunately there were couple of guys that were quite hungry as well so off we go to Billy lee's (Roy, Kenn, Mia, Steph, n Moi) Then Roy drove me back to home. Thx Bro!~ :D

ANyWho.... just wanna do some promotion for the cd that im currently listenin.. its called 4 all u've done by Hillsong. Good album btw... worth every penny of it... Although technically i didnt spent any penny since i 'borrowed n umm... did some magic stuff thus resulted in an identical copy'. But anyhow dont b bad like me... u guys should support them :) Also CongratZ 4 Hillsong who went n flooded the secullar shops around oz with their cds, Good going i heard they went to no 1 in ARIA!!~ Anywway here's a pic of the cover that i got from www.sanity.com.au

Hillsong

Ok ok la i think thats abt it for now... but Dang it!!~ when i wanted my heart to b melted by someone, it cant happen (which is like now lol).... but when i didnt want it... it happened.... I guess u cant control when do u want to fall in love.... Well i guess i just have to wait again.. untill the unexpected come yet again. GBY'all.
Peace out.

ps:
Happy b'day Yen!!~ 19th is it? Well abt time la... lol hopin u all the best in life. GBU
Happy bday Katie!!~ I dunno ur age... but lets keep it that way lol... Anyway wishin u also the very best in life... so when is the marriage? Waekekekekek....
Have a blast this year ladies...

Missin u...

2004-07-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today i received a letter from my granma... was very very touching... Just sayin hi, how r u, etc... However it was the first sentence that hit me the most... she wrote... Chris yg tercinta... (Dearest Chris).... wahh mann... i dunno.. my grandma neva wrote letters 4 me.... we just usually talk on the phone... tho not so much lately.... so umm in a way i was very touched... Coz of old age she cant write too well, the hand writing was almost unreadable... yet it was very readable within me. I dunno y she wrote a letter... haha but im really touched... i miss u too... thnk u.

Eniwei, i went shoppin around today... mostly for detergent, toilet paper, soap, etc.. Then today after so loooooonng waiting for my hair to grew i finally spike it up. wahahha its good to be back i must say.... ;)

2molo i will finally go back to uni... or cic i must say... back to the 8.30am-12.30pm again.... kinda glad actually... hopin that there will b some pretty ladies in the class... huahuhauha

Anyway i got this Everything i do i do it 4 u -Brandy song *stuck* in my head!!!~ Dang it!!~ O well it is a nice song... and whoever made the lyrics must b really good. Did bryan adams wrote this? i dunno... anyway i think thats abt it for now... Oooh almost 4got... 2molo im havin skit practice at 5.30 in Cana.... Nooo.... i cant ACT!!~ I really^2 dunno how 2 act!!~ God Helpp meeeeee!!~ :P The Character that im doin is a genius scientist which is exactly like a potrait of my real character..... NOT!!!~
O well GBY'all.
Peace out.

Ummm....

2004-07-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Grrrr..... cut hair... dont cut.... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut..cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... cut hair... dont cut... ArGGGHHHHhhHHH!!~

Helppppppppppppppppp!!!~

Reading Signs....

2004-07-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

Yellow!~ Today's sunday, n todays service is great... After the service n after waiting quite long we finally had a short meeting. Then Ado, Rhys, Roy, n i went 2 KFC. Afterwards we all went to see King Arthur, again.... Haha after watchin it the 2nd time around i still cant remember all the knights' name. ;( But it aint matter.

Anyway i wanted to update my blog, but dunno what topic to put in. So after lots of thoughts i finally decided to put this topic. As currently i have no love interest whatsoever to nobody, so this topic is kinda like an injection to keep the Atmosphere of love runnin' n flowin' in my blood. ;D huehue...

Was chatting with a good friend from nz couple days ago. He asked "How can u tell when a girl likes u?". lol what a question that was... Truthfully when comes to readin signs from a girl i just totally suck as... I thought i was quite good in reading signs that girls gave... but i was very wrong hahaha... Ok so in the past i have interested in some girls (diff girl diff time) n during those enjoyable yet sufferin time (haha...) i really wanted to know the signs that the girls gave me especially during the "PDKT" forgot the english term ... N obviously i wouldnt have a clue which thus leaving me now to the point of singleness, not that i complain tho'. Most of the times i read girl's signs wrongly!!~ God Help Me!!~ And where does the manual guide for a girl when u need 1, sigh lol. So i got sick of readin the wrong signs n finally i asked 1 of the girl that i was interested in last time... how does boys read the signs given from girls? She answered somethin like Boys n girls are like 2 diff species, n coz guys have less intelligent level than the girls thus leaving them in a state where they just cant read the signs that we gave 'em. And when the time comes for u to have a serious relationship, sometimes u cannot read the signs wrongly, thus when u wanna know... dont guess, just ask n know... its simpler... Wahahaha so is it just me? or are the rest of the guys are also suck as in reading signs given by girls. Do girls having the same problem as me?

Eniwei these are some things that i found on the net... Check these signs out ladies and tell me whether most of it are true? These are the signs that girls gave for guys that they like

she brushes up against you she laughs when you say something (even when it's not funny!)
she gives you a compliment she's turning red when you talk to her she gets nervous when you're around she's nervous while talking to you she's playing with something (pen, bracelet, necklace...)
she's twirling her hair she fingers hers lips she didn't mention to you she had a boyfriend, but she did with others
she's checking in the conversation if you have a girlfriend she reveals her feelings, and say: just kidding
she tries to be with you she's trying to sell herself (sports, work, cuisine, sensitivity, wealth...)
she offers you something she makes an effort with her outfit she tries to be more beautiful (hairdresser, new clothes, lipstick, perfume...)
she fakes jealousy for fun she invites you indirectly or if she suggests any activity she likes to borrow your jumper, your jacket, your pen, your cap...
she asks you for help when she could ask somebody else she likes your firstname and likes to pronounce it
she likes your clothes
she's asking for help
she's touching you "accidently"
she likes to be close to you or in your space
she's usually looking at you
she looks at you when leaves a room

Anyway 2molo is ika's bday, n on 22 is yen's. Sigh quite a lot of ppl that i know having their bday in july. So guys, if ur guys buyin somethin 4 them im in. wahahah.... Ok la GBY'all.

Peace out.