3 postings in a day!~ Hahaha... Anyway this last posting for the day is prob a bit more personal... if u know what i mean. ;p
My friend borrowed me a book called "When God writes your love story". I havent finnished reading it, prob just about halfway. But i gotta say its a pretty good book. I received and learnt quite a bit from it.
Im just gonna take a bit from 1 of the chapter... (im changing the name unto my name ok :D)
Chris, dont you believe that i know who you will marry, and im capable of leading you to that right woman someday? Can u also believe that I am the God of all creation? I know you better that u konw urself, n I am perfectly able to bring this woman into ur life in My own time, in My own way... and i dont need ur help.
Ouch... I just realized that through out this time, tho' i said lots of time that Lord its Your choice, Your will be done. But actually deep inside me im still not ready to give the steering wheel to God in this area of my life. Because i realized that i didnt know Him that well... i didnt realize how BIG he is, I didnt realize what are the things He can do for me. I know that God is good and all, but what if God leads me to a person i dont like? How will i know if shes the right one? What happened if her face is not that good lookin? etc etc... lots of what ifs... Hehe but know i know... How good and loving Our Heavenly Father is. I prayed that God will remove those doubts, and worries. Because i know God has the very best intention for me. I meant if God cant do it? What in heavens name that makes me think i can do it? Hehe... So i learnt how to let go... and let God.
Im also learning how to trust... to put it simply and bluntly, when it come to relationship, im quite a worrier and jealous kinda guy. This is not what God had in mind when He talks abt love in the bible. So if i am not changed... i think it'll b very unfair to the woman of my life. So i prayed that God will change me b4 im in a relationship. And its not an easy thing!! Its sooo hard... but i am in that process to learn n be changed.
Hehe and i got this favorite line that said by the author's wife to her husband... "Even if you get a pot belly, and go bald, im going to love you Eric! You cant lose my love, becauseits not a love i need to feel--it is a love that i have chosen!" Wow... i wanna be able to love like that... its like Agape's love, God's love, Unselfish love.
Lord i give You the pen to write about my love story... altho it might be a tough process, Lord im willing to change, and let go of some of the areas that i need to let go. and let You to 'steer' my ship. Because You know best O'God. And in your mind you think of the very best for me. Teach me how to love a woman with Your kind of Love, an unselfish love. Hear my prayer O'Lord. In Jesus name. Amen. You are the author and the finisher of my faith, just as You are the author and finisher of my love life. Hehe...
Oh well now to continue to finish the book. :p God Bless Y'all.
